Alone, All by myself

2011-12-04T00:21:00.003+08:00

You know...

Sometimes I just wish that I could be the one, but yet sometimes i don't even dare to wish for it.

Sometimes it's better not to say it out and rather keep to yourself or maybe sometimes you've just got the urge to say it out to the person you want to and don't care what's gonna happen next.

Life is confusing, feeling is even more confusing.

Sometimes you'll just wonder why can't you get whoever you want to be with you. And yet after gotten reject you can't even move on anymore.

No matter how many people walk thru and passes your life, you just can't accept it but only like the one your heart had chosen.

Life is unfair, life let you see all your friends getting a happy life with the other half but yet you can't get it for yourself. Why is it like this? I don't understand it myself sometimes.

2011-11-17T23:57:00.003+08:00

Started working in RWS USS as causal recently or I should say it's almost a month ago. The job was pretty okay I should say, but to minus off some ugly hearted people this job would have been perfect. But oh well, without all these kind of people in the job you'll never get to learn. Got a little shock with their working style there though, trying to adapt as much as i could by learning from the correct people.

Received a text message about a week ago, a job had been offered to me as an ASM. Well, at first I rejected the job because firstly I wasn't ready or good enough to be an ASM and I had been their sound op ever since i stepped out to work in this industry. Secondly, my fall out friend is the SM in the production and I haven't been talking to her for the past 2 month plus. So these two things i've mentioned above makes me even more not ready for the job as much as I wanted to help. A few days later, i received another text message again from the PM asking me for some people's number and ask if i could help because of some reason. The asm job had been offer to me for the second time and I don't have the heart to reject it but to accept it. So I applied my leave at RWS USS and here I go, UPHILL.

Sunday night i couldn't get to sleep, not because i'm excited to go uphill and work but worried about how it would turn out between me and my fall out friend?

Monday, slowly climb up the tiring hill and got very exhausted after i reach the top. My first stop aunty florence wardrobe room to have a chat with her and receive a text message from SM a number that i haven't seen for the past 2 month plus to say i can report 15 min later, second stop to the office to look for Two Head pork to let her know that i'm here to report for work.

Honestly speaking i'm not prepare to see my SM yet, when SM came back from getting props I was so scared to walk into the office to even say hi. Seriously don't know what is wrong with me really. But i've got no choice, I took a deep breathe, walk into the office to say hi, i know i'm rude la cause i haven't got any eye contact when i greet. Came to my surprise, things went well with the first hi and everything. I just couldn't ask for more.

Well I'll update too again...

2011-11-17T23:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just don't understand why people are so dramatic around me.

People being two headed, people being such big fat liar.

Definition of two headed in my own dictionary.

Example 1:

Being kind to X and then go over to tell Y how bad X is, then going back to X again and tell how bad Y is!

Definition of liar in my own dictionary.

Example a:

Whenever things happen during a production, after solving a problem you go out and tell people un-true stuff and make people really believe that it's other team members fault.

Pardon my language but FUCK YOU two headed and liars!

2011-11-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's exactly 1 year today!

A day that I've put down my heart to make a very big decision for myself...

2011-10-25T17:24:00.013+08:00

Recently in Facebook people like to post some interesting short message toeither cheer you up or make you laugh and say yeah that's true!

A couple of pictures here:

All about horoscope... I'm in the last category

The W T F calendar

For some people who don't know how to respect others.

To FUGLY FROG, I didn't have a good impression of you but after working you seriously suck big fucking time. Don't have to give that proud and sarcastic look when you just an ugly frog cling to the human. B.I.T.C.H, you were jealous when human and I were still friends back then! So this message above applies alot. I don't wanna fight with you just an ugly frog because I listen to whatever human has told me and I don't wanna waste my time with just an ugly frog that only knows how to croak for nothing and bring outside friendship stuff into work. Don't have to pretend like as if you are working professionally, people around you have eyes to see. And lastly you don't know me well to comment on me B.I.T.C.H.

You are being juvenile not me!

Hahaha

"Hopeful" is the word to describe!

Well...

No comments... but just like it:)

Well... A lesson can mean alot of things like to change into a better person for the people whom have come into your life. OR some might say a lesson to move on, it's just a matter of time.

A blog to share my mood...

Reality bites a lot in my life recently...

2011-10-25T17:24:00.001+08:00

!!!FUCK OFF YOU FUGLY FROG!!!

2011-09-29T10:43:00.002+08:00

Bumped into theatre!

The feeling of working in an acting performance theatre is like a totally new experience for me.

Hate to work with two headed people to the core!

2011-09-21T22:59:00.003+08:00

LASALLE Convocation 2011

After my last lesson with school, I've officially graduate from LASALLE College of The Arts today with a BA(Hons). In the convocation this year, there were lesser people and lesser noise. I would say it was slightly more fun than last year, 7 out of 8 classmates turn up for the ceremony and was really happy to see my classmates once again.

Well as usual, there are always a lot of things that always kept me thinking. Last year's convocation I was really happy and this year's convocation, yeah was a little happy but the mood just can't bring it up.

Would like to take this chance to say, whoever thinks that EM3 students/Normal Technical Students/ITE Student are useless I've to correct you, YOU ARE WRONG! Who says that ITE is the short form of It's The End? Bullshit alright! There are a couple of name that I shall not mention and I won't forget, talking bad and looking down on people when their child do better then us. Well we just took a longer path to walk but in the end we still share the same level with your bloody child. Anyway I don't wanna say much and I hope God bless you!

Anyway recently just got hooked on with this Left 4 Dead LAN game together with my LASALLE classmates. Killing all those zombie(like those in resident evil) in a team, having Josiah's tactic to complete the mission that we've failed. Well it's really fun when all those stupid politic of the theatre are not there. Things just went well and everyone's happy!

How I wish I can turn back time to restart everything from scratch again.

Back in reality what was done have been done, Just need a miracle to happen.

And now I do agree with this sentence, Reality bites!

2011-09-16T12:32:00.002+08:00

I'm utterly disappointed with everything and almost everything that's around me right now!

My used to be friend told me this before our friendship and everything gone bad, she said there's no one around her she could trust or believe anymore. And now I totally agree with what she says, I have no one i could trust or believe anymore.

Just don't understand what kind of screw up life is this! Just fucked!

2011-09-12T10:57:00.008+08:00

Dealing with some issue recently, in order not to get too upset about it (even thought I've already did) I've decided to do something for myself. Getting jobs that's undone, Done! It's still in the process of building up but still I'm getting some results! Hopefully everything will work out smoothly.

Other then getting jobs done, my other business at home are watching youtube videos, do research on longboard, research on drum kit and research on handy camcorder to keep myself entertain.

Staying at home justcan't make my life better, can't recover from all the stupid sickness one after another but the only good thing about staying at home is saving up money.

Went for job interview and it turn out to be good, which mean money coming in and government is sucking my money to pay school fees! They feel like a mosquito to me?!

Alright post some pictures (Things that kept me entertain this whole entire month)

Longboard:

Having lots of fun, expensive to keep upgrading it and getting other gears sometimes.

Drum kit:

Still researching and for now Gretsch catalina maple drum kit and as for the cymbals Paiste pst 5, rude, alpha sounds good to me so far.

Handy Camcorder:

Flip Mino HD 3rd Generation vs Zoom Q3HD

Flip's image is nicer than Zoom's, Zoom's audio is better than Flip's.

Flip's body is better than Zoom's, Zoom's body just feels like a toy camera to me.

Conclusion not getting any of it at the moment, Nikon D90 is the best haha!

2011-09-01T12:35:00.000+08:00

Can I turn back time and restart everything again?

2011-09-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

Speech of the day: ...

I want to Thank everyone whom I can thought of that contributed to the "best result" I've ever received today! Even though most of the time that is me that I've got to thank. Guesses it's the best result that most of you would have been dying to see for a long time.
Greatly appreciate for your support and fuck you all!

Thank you!

2010-07-08T22:45:00.002+08:00

What the fuck is going on?

What the hell is happening to me?

I'm lost...

Suddenly just felt that i've lost every single thing.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?

Walked aimlessly yesterday, just basically wish that SG is a never ending place for me to walk.

2010-07-04T01:08:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to say and what to do.

Silent is a killer...

2010-05-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

I knew I shouldn't have tell you those stuff,

I knew you'll be pissed and angry with me.

But I just don't know why i suddenly felt that I need to let you know.

I just don't want friendship to turn bad, I really don't know what to say anymore.

Making the first step by telling you is already a wrong step and I guesses i'm stupid.

People don't even bother to tell you what they think but just keep quiet and dislike you. Which i know you couldn't be bothered.

Final conclusion,

I'm stupid

I don't want friendship to turn bad

Guesses i'm gonna be alone and all by myself again. ='(

2010-05-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

To: All my friends

If one day you feel like crying call me. I can't promise that I will make you laugh, but I can cry with you.

If one day you want to runaway, don't be afraid to call me. I promise I won't ask you to stop but i can run with you.

If one day you don't want to listen anymore, call me. I promise to be there for you, but also remain quiet.

But one day if you call and there's no answer, come fast to see me. Perhaps i need you.

2010-05-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

I usually don't hate or dislike people unless somethings upset me happens, because i believe in making friends not war.

When I say i know, why you don't believe me?

Turn out telling people whom i don't really talk to about it and make it part of the joke.

End result only makes me hate the fellow even more.

Yes i got to admit i doesn't have a good impression of that fellow. But like what Botak always say, there are always reason behind it and there's no magic. People are not blind or deaf, we do hear what the fellow says out from it's mouth and see that fellow's action.

Yes i know and i understand that that fellow is young and stuff but can it be an excuse?

Anyway i type so much in here i doubt you'll remember i have a blog!

2010-05-03T23:59:00.004+08:00

有時，我一個人很孤單的時候

我會想到不快樂的東西／事情。

好想，比如，

我是什麽貨色，有什麽知個想當你的朋友？

好想跟你說我的心事，你會了解嗎？

有說不出的心事，我敢決好辛苦，你知道嗎？

但是跟你說了我的心事之后，你會說什麽？

說我是一個沒有用的人嗎？亥是會跟我說，你一后在也不想跟我這仲人說話了？

我會真細這份友情，你會嗎？

2010-05-02T12:42:00.003+08:00

Suddenly felt alone and all by myself again.

2010-04-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

Heard a surprise news,

I don't know what to do...

Is it a lie? Is it the truth?

I really can't decide...

Is it a test or is it something else?

Weird feelings loiter around me,

Freaking don't know what to do.

Freaking dislike about it.

World change,

People change,

Everything around me is changing.

Can i reformat my brain to start everything fresh and new?

If only i can!

2010-04-12T23:31:00.003+08:00

ALONE, ALL BY MYSELF

The way people talks,

the way people think.

I'm not petty but it,

make me feel lost,

make me feel sad.

I can feel it

and it's crying.

Almost everyday and every night I think about it

Cause I've been thinking what's going on

and tears keep flowing on and on.

It's just me or it's just you

Am I crazy or you're stubborn

Am I a bad friend to you?

I really wanna know?

Nothing is fair to me,

it's always been my fault?!

Since when you ever believe me?

Since when you ever gave me a chance to talk?

Since when you ever care for a friend like me?

Since when, since when, since when?

Do i even exist as a friend in your life?

ARGH!

How to have a heart to heart talk

when a person keep saying no improvement been make?

Make you don't feel like talking to me anymore is the line you say to me.

Really wish all these things doesn't exist!

I seriously think that

Keeping quiet seems like the best solution.

How to improve when upsetting things keep happening.

When i'm trying to improve did you see it?

What's going on?!

Am I going to live in the Alone, All by myself world again?

Always think that make friends not war,

Now i think that i'm alone all by myself.

Why is it so complicated

Why why why why why

Fuck man, just fuck it.

Keep inside for the longest and i didn't flair.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..........

A new piece of irritating song.

2010-04-09T00:04:00.002+08:00

Suddenly feel like blogging, feel like blogging in chinese will be the first blog ever.

Just blog whatever words that came to my mind with my current mood and emotions.

Pardon me if it's bad.

人生就像是一個儚。

相信＝受騙

朋友為什麽會變成敵人？

生活中有起有落，那一個是你真整想要的？

人就不能賤賤單單的過生活嗎？

心里有個好大的問號，誰能幫我，了解我？

2010-03-05T00:46:00.004+08:00

Life is just like a dream!

Feeling terrible for some freaking reason, something non related to school but just myself.

Hate it to the core, felt like as if i've fallen from a great height!

Who will know how I feel?

2010-02-27T12:01:00.005+08:00

Photo Session 26 Feb 2010

Simply love the photo session we had yesterday. After so long, with all those rubbish in almost all production we ourself finally get to see individual smiling carefree in this group photo. Wonderful photo taken from The Pond company. I can tell you that the photo taking session for individual is damn freaking stressful. I smile till my lips tremble and i don't like my picture. Hahaha.. But anyway convocation let's take a group photo again!!!!

Technical Theatre Students need appreciation too!

Cam whoring session

Sound Dept of T.T Level 2

Background: Lu ren jia

Sam action tell us, she's burning hot!

We have been classmate since, Level 0, 1 & 2

I've got no idea on what we doing!?

2010-02-10T23:31:00.008+08:00

Felt like thrash again today...

Real fucking bad mood...

As usual can't talk to the person whom i use to talk to...

Blogger is now the place where i vent my anger, say out all the unhappy stuff in me and get emo.

I, Tan Shi Yi Sage, always get shit nowadays...

Do I even exist in my friends life?

Maybe when others are busy, magically i appear?

Friend whom I trusted makes me feel that i'm not even a friend to him/her anymore.

Take the initiative and try my best but still felt like shit...

What am I to my friend?

Stranger or Friend?

I know my friend hated me when i say i'm a stranger to him/her,
but I always felt like a stranger more then a friend to you,
When there are others i became invisible.
What will happen if my friend read these?
Think i'm crazy for sure, because they just don't bother?
Which of this two options I'm in?

Stranger

1. A person with whom one has had no personal acquaintance:

He is a perfect stranger to me.

2. A newcomer in a place or locality: a stranger in town.

3. An outsider: They want no strangers in on the club meetings.

4. A person who is unacquainted with or unaccustomed to something (usually fol. by to): He is no stranger to poverty.

5. A person who is not a member of the family, group, community or the like, as a visitor or guest: Our town shows hospitality to strangers.

6. Law. one not privy or party to an act, proceeding, etc.

Friend

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.

2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.

3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.

Fucking stress with school work...

And i know everyone in class are stress too...

Tons of homework, Tons of things to do in school...

With my character, if i tell my friend that i'm stress,

what will they think again?

Lack of confident?

Need more experience?

Being look down again?

My life is getting more and more complicated every single day...

Need to get out of this, need to do something...

Crying isn't the best solution after all...

This i'm getting crazy, really turning into a looney!

2010-02-10T18:59:00.003+08:00

I'm pissed!

1. Being forgotten!

2. I always feels that i'm a spare tire!

3. Always out of the list!

Shit things happen again.

Why is it always me?

Why cannot be other people?

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!

FUCK LA...

2010-02-01T23:23:00.005+08:00

Tired of life...

Tired of living in such complicated life...

Tired of having such a terrible disappointed feelings...

Felt like a total stranger completely...

Keeping quiet isn't the best solution after all..

I felt disappointed yet i treasure...

I'm trying very hard to prove everything i can..

Who can i talk to?

Basically no one!

I can't talk to the person i use to talk to anymore...

I'm being look down!!!

Is this a test???

I HATE IT...

Things aren't the same anymore...

Confident where the fuck are you?

Hope, dream, mood have been destroy all by you CONFIDENT...

You make me fucking look down by people...

You make my friend get pissed with me because i lack of you...

You make me fucking felt like a total stranger out with my friend if they still regard me as one...

WHY WHY WHY....

WHAT THE F**K MAN!

EXPLAIN TO ME!

Why can't life be the same for me again?

Why must things change?

Where is the usual me with all those confident?

I FUCKING NEED TO PROVE THAT I CAN DO IT...

!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$!@#$%^&**&^%$#@#$%^

Yes i know by blogging all this i'll be even more look down by people...

I need to thrash it out in order to move on to the next confident level...

Working hard alone, working hard all by myself...

If only they know what and how i feel!

2010-01-30T22:27:00.004+08:00

Slogan... Alone, all by myself have followed me for years!

Things, people around changes!

Change into good? or bad?

No comments...

Life is complicated..

Things in me makes one look down,

Working hard to prove it...

Working hard alone working hard all by myself!

2010-01-28T22:19:00.005+08:00

Some words hit me last night and it went straight into my weak point.

Well... firstly i would like to thank him/her for waking me up. Secondly, yes I know why you say it. And i will change!

When i say i will means I WILL...

When i say i know means I UNDERSTAND...

When i say i'll try means I'LL DO IT...

Words takes time to digest in my brain...

Listening to advices and comments let me consider and think properly before making my finally decision...

Time will prove it...

2010-01-28T00:25:00.002+08:00

???WHY???

2010-01-14T21:59:00.002+08:00

Loser am I?!

Fuck it already...

Perhaps what another say was right...

Care too much for a friend...

Just hope things will get better...

2010-01-09T19:33:00.001+08:00

Got my wisdom tooth extracted

Could hardly speak or eat...

Isn't that easy as i thought of...

such a is life...

*shake head*

2010-01-09T19:29:00.001+08:00

Do i have to face a challenge before i can make a friend?

After having a friend, how much challenge do i have to face?

Negative thought always force me to think that i don't have friends, trying hard to fought with it.

Question from my friend:

A friend talk to me, asking me why i keep thinking that way?

Have i ever thought how she feels when i say it.

Do i trust her?

Answer:

When I'm emo, i think too much...

Honestly when I'm emo-ing, i didn't think of how people feels untill her question strike me with and i realise it's unfair because i didn't spare a thought for her.

Of course i do trust her, if not i wouldn't have tell her so much stuff...

Misunderstanding happen once again, didn't meant what it suppose to..

Shouldn't have tell or say anything in the first place.

What a stupid me for all i can say...

2009-12-09T23:20:00.003+08:00

Got a job from someone i know, working in an events company.

Work as a sound engineer...It was fun for the past 2 days up till TODAY!

Was pretty upset with those words that came out from a kangaroo but the show must go on somehow and someway if not usually I will just explode and fight back...

I did my best but still.. Disappointed with myself for not being smart enough..

Emo untill cannot emo, wanna cry now but can't even squeeze one drop of tears out. Heart just felt weird like as if it's crying inside with lots of disappointment.

Comment from people i know:

M -Don't care about them, kangaroo always very particular in this kind of thing, but act smart.

V - Hey it's okay, it took me years to understand how it works and they don't know anything.

Y - Don't take those people words to heart, they don't know anything

H- Never give up, last time i also like that. Next time i bring you around when i do shows and you help me.

S - it's like that one, no mistake how you gonna learn next time. in future how?

S - At least you're a student still learning, not so bad.

D - Tell them straight that you tried your best

So comments to me are comforting, but still it's down to myself now... sigh!

Tmr is my last day in hell, wish me luck.

tiredverytired...

2009-11-17T00:00:00.002+08:00

I need to get out of this over protecting place. Get a life man, stop those protecting nonsense. Had enough, gonna get crazy one day for what you all have done.

2009-10-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

Mood for the day...

Tired.sian.bad mood.no mood.Pissed.unhappy.upset.dissapointed. Whatever.emo.

= Such is life!

Good night!

2009-10-04T20:09:00.004+08:00

It has been such a long time since i last blog. As usual i gonna say i'm busy with my mountains of school work and production ever since school started in August. Lots of stuff/things changes in school and all, living in a cock up school. Well many people's mind have the thought of quitting which i totally agree, because even i also have that thought. For now what we can do is to endure, live with what we have and see what's ahead of us.

Well... Such is life yeah!

Anyway i'm glad that i met up with Yun and Grace for Randy's 21st birthday. Had so much fun and many talking updating our life in school and work. Getting on with the planning of having live band events. Really hope to meet up asap even though we stay freaking near each another.

Some message that you can ignore if you don't understand...

MAKE FRIENDS NOT WAR.

God created human.

He created Man and Women and they become your family and Friends.

Let's talk a little about friends...

Friends are someone that god brought you and another together to share, happiness, sadness.

There are billions of population in this world and it's a hard chance to meet up a fellow and make them what you call friends.

Treasure the friends that's beside you, it's fate that you and your friends can get a chance to meet in such big population in this world.

Treasure them before it's too late!

Cheers...

2009-06-26T11:47:00.002+08:00

Finally i feel like updating my blog...

Shall update about school reopen since i have never update about it before. Busy with production after another, Backstage pass, Invisibility, Three fat virgin and lastly Industries showcase and One more important thing, assignments!!!! . All these rehearsing, bumping in and out really took up half of my 2009 good year.

Backstage pass:

A place we really start learning and work together as a team. Beginning, Light designer, Sound designer, Stage manager and crew isn't easy.

Invisibility and Three fat virgin:

Working on these two productions can be fun yet tiring, btw i'm the lighting operator. Learning how to use the board is fun. And also making friends with the casts.

Industries Showcase:

Working as their SGW(Sai gang warrior), no comment. You will know if you're there.

All my hard work from jan 2009 till may 2009.

Oh Btw i got into SOUND, woohoo...

Holidays started long ago and I'm home. Things i planned for my holiday didn't work out, like taking up some course, get a bike license, paintballing and the only thing is i went Ubin with my classmate had fun and my legs ache like shit from cycling..

Well many things happen, Uncle passed away a week plus ago, he had cancer from his kidney and was spread to his lungs and liver. When doctor found out it's already in the last stage, unable to cure. RIP Uncle.

Well roughly less then a month till school reopen, yeah sometimes i feel i can't wait for school to reopen.

update soon

2009-04-02T09:11:00.002+08:00

TOO BUSY TO UPDATE!!!

erm, maybe after my homeworks.. and production will update something. till then!

2009-01-03T11:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Thought i'm like 2 days later to wish in my blog!

Twilight yesterday with my close cousin, i guess it's not so bad other then the teenager vampire Edward Cullen is handsome. Comments make by others saying comparing the book and the movie, the book is much better. But too bad i seldom read and movie only got 1.5 to 2 hours to select the interesting part out and act so yeah . And i don't mind watching it again hahaha.

Going down to Alex's [my brother] house later on for his 21st birthday celebration. Oh my goodness, i just celebrated mine like not long ago and now his turn and i'm like 22 this year. OLD OLD OLD!!! The stressful years/days are yet to come. Cousin have been nagged like nobody's business like why no boyfriend and stuff already, mine is like soon to come. The worst part of this year is Chinese new year, getting ang bao and receiving wishes like hope you find bf and married soon. Damn!

Two more darn days and i'm going back to school. I gonna just die in school lol, production, backstage pass and more project and assignment to work hard on. Well, this might be the blog that going to last me don't know how long till i got another time to blog. And Petrina dawn tan, don't haunt me for blog alright, your blog now is worst then mine. hahahahahhaa.

Alright to comfort myself, i missed school, i missed my classmate AND I MISS HOME EVEN MORE!

2008-12-31T23:36:00.002+08:00

Less then 30 min and it's gonna be 2009.

Counting down every min ever second to welcome the new year and the bad year soon gonna be gone, but come to think that this year is not so bad after all as in the past 6 months counting from June. Thanks to my 3 best pals the 2 chew and 1 soon and not forgetting my other friends for their listening ears and everything. Thanks for bringing in light and smile.

Thanks mum and dad for getting digital gadgets like digital canon camera, Macbook black, Money on my 21st birthday so that i can get my iPhone white, my wonderful guitar. Woohoo!

Alright, the last blog for 2008 and i'm like at home watching t.v.

Wishing everyone a happy new year!

2008-12-26T10:44:00.007+08:00

Call up one of the shop at sim lim on monday for macbook black and they have got 3 left. And so rush down the next day for it together with woan rong. Woohoo! After soon long.

Pictures:

Christmas eve went to Church like after soon long. Well, late for the musical drama and missed the part that yun's sang. Erm took pictures but in not with me with yun so i shall wait. lolx.

Christmas day, went auntie's house for christmas party. Meet up with cousins, nieces and nephew. Adorable! Cousins bring their partner to the party which also bring stress to us. WTH! But after all enjoyed it.

Pictures:

Gina and me[ps i suppose to be taller haha but i bend down]

Left to right: Gina, me, joyce and her bf.

Planned Count down with Yun, muhahaha Thinks it's gonna be a good one. Can't wait for it to come, 5 more days.

I'm so dead i haven't start on my homework yet! Help me!

Petrina dawn tan i update my blog already okay. hahahaha

2008-12-23T10:18:00.003+08:00

I'VE GOT SABOTAGE BY SOMEONE IN MY CLASSMATE NAME PETRINA DAWN TAN HSUEN WEI!

Sabotage me, go you blog still cannot copy and paste wth!

1. Do you have any Secret?

Yeah, alot!

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?

Hahaha, no. But who knows right but definitely not a girl?

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

I don't know

4. What will you do with a billion dollars?

I will buy myself a big house and ask my 3 friends to come join me.[the 2 chew and 1 soon] Opening Jamming studio. Buy myself a car. Give mum, dad, sis and brother money to buy the things they want.

5.What will you be doing tomorrow?

Erm, slacking, heard that tmr got christmas eve musical drama so i'm going.

6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

Both side will be the best.

7. What do you love doing?

Love Jamming and slacking.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Wish them happiness duh!

9. Is there anything that make you extremely happy?

Yes, having a house, a car, a successful career, having my friends around sharing my happiness together.

10. Do you secretly dislike someone without them knowing?

Hmm, of course! But secret not by myself, with others too, lolx!

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?

In 10 years time i'm going to be 31 wtf! Maybe having a successful own company, a car, a damn nice house, married?! who knows?

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?

friends and family

13. What is being regarded as the most important things in your life?

erm, computer?

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

Erm, Married but poor, cos you can always earn the money.

15. What is your favourite colour?

I don't know, like almost all the colour.

16. If your attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what will you do?

What kind of question is this?

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?

Depending on who? It's not easy to forget though the thing always been appearing in my head.

18. What if you caught your bf/gf doing stuffs (only god knows what) with another girl or guy?

Well, depend on what kind of things he have done, if it's those kind of things that only god knows then hahaha dump him? cook him? Announce to the whole world?

19. Do you believe at there's " Love at first sight"?

Maybe who knows but mostly are flings and crush i guess.

One person to sabo?

I'm kind not sabo-ing anyone, i'm not like petrina dawn tan hsuen wei. LOLX!

2008-12-15T10:15:00.006+08:00

It's December already another 15 more days, Singapore is going to count down and welcome in 2009 Woohoo! Gotta plan a count down outing with my class asap.

Need to some new digital gadgets like labtop and phone.

Labtop still alive and kicking but the current one is quite heavy so yeah!

Phone contract is up so still deciding on which phone to get. HTC, iPhone or Sony Ericsson.

3 phones that's on my mind now which is:

HTC Touch Pro:

http://www.htc.com/sea/product/touchpro/specification.html

Sony Ericsson Xperia 1:

http://www.sonyericsson.com/cws/products/mobilephones/specifications/x1?lc=en&cc=sg

Apple iPhone:

http://www.apple.com/sg/iphone/specs.html

Labtop is just window or mac...

After so long still haven get 1 yet. Oh well!

Anyway next year school schedule is tied but fun and tiring. Starting to miss class already!

2008-11-30T11:45:00.001+08:00

Hohohohohohohoho!

I think it's almost 2 months since i last blogged. Many many many things happen in school, in band and some outside stuff. And finally after next week it's gonna be school holidays. Woohoo!

Start from school first:
My second production title 7734 has finally finish [5-7 November 2008] . And i can say bumping in and out was indeed tiring. Plus so many thing suddenly happen and everything crop up so with the amount of short time we have, we just rush and whack what everything we can to do the best. Having been sleeping well during the production, go school early in the morning and go home late in the night like 11plus 12, treating home like a hotel. Having been eating home cook food like damn long, always been eating in school and i can say the usual food like rice, noodle and prata. 7 November, 7734 production ended successfully and we creative team finally felt kinda stress free. By the way, Hildan Swing is officially cancelled due to some school issue and so that mean I've got to go and think of something to perform.

8th November, Attend my I.T.E college lecturer's wedding.
Summary for the whole of november, my whole class just kind of felt like dying due to lack of sleep. Well we kinda get use to it already. And lastly we got no time for shopping for new clothes. More black clothes needed in my warerobe.

27, 28 and 29 of Novemeber which is like 3 days back, i've been going back to main band for their band camp. All i can say is that they are the most fortunate band ever, going private movie screening, ECP for bbq session, nice lunch and dinner even the drinks. Back in my band days we don't even have such stuff, all we have is bonding outing which is already the best for us. Anyway nowadays kids are very bless with almost everything. Such is life! The new code for my course. Mini concert yesterday was good, Sec one and the main band did a good job. Practice make perfect!
Holidays after next week cool, but everyone is working hard on the major project/assessment backstage pass which is held next year in mid Feb. Damn excited, scary and nervous, exicted because we wrote our own play, scary and nervous because there is 14 play and our class people have to take turn to be in different roles like stage manager, sound design, lighting design. If one thing crop up sure got conflict, people trying to keep one another. So wish us good luck.

To grace and yun, I missed you all hahaha, let meet up soon for outing yeah!!
To TA3A people, let's go jamming till we die!!
To That whoever kind soul you assume, thanks for kpo-ing, i'm totally fine!
To people, Thanks for understanding how we feel!!
SUCH IS LIFE!

2008-10-03T18:18:00.016+08:00

Hohoho! I skipped school today!
Down with high fever, flu, sore throat, stomach flu and keep on vomitting, basically almost all the common sickness i kena. Glad to say i somehow felt better after wasting 30 bucks on doctor, feeling high and drowsy on drugs that the doc gave. As usual this few days had been busy with school striking in and out.

Tuesday kinda of went shopping but ended up going Singapore Biennale at supreme court together with Yang Ming, one of my classmate. And guess what i saw an artwork that is done by a artist together with the help of me and another 2 fellow school mate in lasalle. The following picture are the artwork.

Pictures:

Singapore Biennale 2008 [Wonder]

Corner of artwork that we splash in the artist studio

A couple of bigger board for us to splash the paint on

Corner of the final finish artwork

The final finish artwork that exhibit in Singapore Biennale 2008 @ supreme court

More pictures on other artist's artwork.

Installation of an artist [Singapore] by the name Wit Pimkanchanapong.

This installation allows people to write notes and paste on it and so i wrote something on it.

With so many people's notes on it, try to find the two notes i wrote. Muhahahhaha!

A book that swims [Bachelor] by Ki bong Rhee

MAGGOTS!!! by Pham Ngoc Duong

Mountain [Think of one thing] by Mariele Neudecker

Alright that's all for the artist pictures.Oh yesh above pictures are taken by my new camera. Mine is the brown one!

Picture:

Canon Ixus 80

I'm flooded with homework, Quills essay, Scenography of Medea, Gobo for lighting design, Autocad drawing for technical drawing. WOAH! Die, confirm die sick already, see all this homework also won't recover. One thing i damn excited, should be getting myself a black macbook by next week if i've got time to go and get!

Macbook black! Woo! damn excited!

Alright that's about all, gonna k.o again after medication! Update soon!

2008-09-24T12:08:00.007+08:00

Phew! After so long i finally got to update. My school production finally ended last sat and this week gotta relax for a few days. Having a week holidays this week and notice that i only stated a few days to relax cause there's no differents at all we still gonna go school. Gonna upload a few pictures of production : Five women wearing the same dress! Not much photo actually cause was busy as a sound operator. Oh yes btw wanna thank yun and grace for coming to watch the play!

Pictures:

That's Ema, my sound designer.

ASM and Props Mistress in action

My working desk up in the control room

Somehow i got a chance to take this picture. During show!

Cast for five women wearing the same dress!

This production including rehearsal when on like almost nearly up to a month, it's seriously damn tiring but fun i should day. Leaving home before sun rise and go home when sun sets, no life arh. Well soon i'll get use to it man, starting to like it already.

Monday went RP for a so called lesson with one of our part time lecturer. It was fun, knowing new friends and also sharing the different knowledge we having. Cool, hope to see the RP peeps even more. Amacam!! A malay words that i learn from a RP peep!

Received a wedding bomb from my I.T.E lecturer, She's finally getting married though i attend her R.O.M last year. And the most scary part is her wedding got theme and the theme is SHANGHAI!!! OMG, have to go and look for clothes and stuff that is related, headache sia! But i guess it's gonna be fun and in the whole class she only invite 3 fellows which is me and another two guys. Haha, will post the pictures after the wedding which is on 8 nov.

Yesh i got to change my production with another classmate of mine so that i can attend my I.T.E Lecturer's wedding and also play for HILDAN SWING! Woohoo! So happy, was kinda dissapoint cause i thought i couldn't play for hildan swing this time round.

Alright got to go back to finish up the rest of my assignment if not the mountain is getting higher.And i wanna get a macbook soon!

Update soon!

2008-09-06T13:40:00.003+08:00

Homework, homework and more homework to come.

Completed the lighting assigment and sound design d.i box manuel research now still left with technical drawing which i don't really like it at all, Scenography's cornell box and stage management check list. Sian arh!

Supposingly today going to one of the church friend's birthday but ended up doing homework at home, felt bad man. I'm sorry! And i wish you Happy 21st birthday! It's stupid homework's fault. This morning thought that i can slowly finish up the remaining homework because there's still tomorrow to complete but receive an email this morning saying that the production i'm currently doing need us to go down tomorrow. WTH! So no choice by today i've to finish up all. Though sometimes in my mind i've got this mindset asking myself are you sure you wanna stay in this course?

Hmm this is the fifth week of school, life have been busy with production and homework. After studying for this five weeks i've understand why people always say their home are like hotel! Left home early in the morning before sun rise and reach home in the middle of night, even if you reach home in the evening, your life is still filled with work and work with close deadlines! Sometimes you will also not know what's going on round you that's the worst part.

Some classmate are the one that are close to me now in school and then some of us in class set up a band name TA3A which include a guitarist, a bassist, a drummer, a keyboard and i still don't know who, a singer and we all so called jam in sound design lesson. And that reminds me of The Outcast band members and reminds me of how we jam and the "contest" we took part in. Reliase that i haven't meet up with you all as the outcast for a long time. Let's meet up and jam one day.

End year concert, Hildan Swing 2008 is on this year. Heard their confirm date is on the 29 novemeber 2008 and before that there will be band camp. St. Hilda's Alumni Winds is playing as well, if not members are going to rot again. The Outcast we'll be playing yea! This time english songs no more chinese song alright!

Alright going back to finish up my damm homework, update soon!

2008-09-01T22:39:00.004+08:00

Digging some time out from homework and production to blog. If not soon the blog gonna rot soon! Anyway congrats to jaslin ang for passing her driving test, woohoo another driver so i can drink and you'll drive yea! And i passed my first aid course!

Anyway school have been real busy! Busy with production, homework and other stuff! Last week was crap, got accuse by some shit matters from this abc and it's not true afterall! Kena sai! Finally got my name cleared cause i go clarify with this lady in level 2 and Cannot be bothered with all this shit man!

Morning class was cancelled due to lecturer went overseas, afternoon class was sound design. Pretty good i should say because cause we somehow ended up jamming! I played the guitar, Fadd play the bass and petrina sang. Wasn't that bad except my playing need to practice more.

Alright more stuff need to finish up, update soon with all the pictures!

2008-08-19T09:55:00.006+08:00

Once again wanna thanks the lovely people who wishes and celebrating my birthday with me!

Pictures:

Classmate celebrated my 21st for me at seoul garden

Anyway on sat meet up with Yun, Lin and Grace for dinner @ Sakae straight after my first aid course. Dinner was good, lots of craping and stuff. Wanted to watch movie but ended up we didn't cause i've got first aid the next day!

School burn up our weekends by sending us to first aid course, aiya long story man! But after these two lessons we attended can say it's fun and also can say it's boring. Fun is obviously the pratical, bored other then theory what else. Lolx

Pictures:

Some basic bandage we've learn

We figure out how bra and bikini came about

The long lost Twins, Ming really make the whole class laugh out loud!

CPR was fun at learning, this coming sat having first aid exam hopefully the whole class pass! Pray hard pray hard!

ARGHH!!!!!!! Need to finish off that j.g technical drawing by today wth! Technical drawing can really break someone's back, no kidding i'm seriously. My nearly break last night! Alright update soon!

2008-08-14T21:41:00.008+08:00

Offically 21

Yesh, i'm finally 21 years young today, haha not old yea!

SHSB_Family[St. Hilda's symphonic band] came over to my house last night to celebrate my early birthday, cos firstly they lied to me saying wanna ask me question photoshop, secondly i told them i'm sick so call me earlier didn't expected them to come seriously. But anyway thanks alot man! Love the present and the cake!

Uunfortunately, i've got class today go yea celebrated my 21st with my classmate from TTA(Technical Theatre Arts). Really appreciated it alot and wanna thank you guys for celebrating my birthday for me. Though the smashing of ice kacang into my mouth, that fear factor soup and whipped cream was... hmm ya okay but yea still enjoy it. Actually planned to go timbre with my shss and lasalle friend on sat but die die that first aid course have to attend and it really spoilt my plan so everything is cancel, maybe dinner will be a good idea instead.

Should be meeting grace and yun soon for dinner for belated birthday!

Haiz, wasn't feeling well this few days, fever come and go WTH! Cannot really do homework but just sleep and rest, feels like a pig man!

Picture time:

At Seoul Garden

This is my classmate name "C" & she can really eat

The Trumpeters : Mido and ME

The Ice-Kacang that they make for me and smash on me!

After effect Ice Kacang!

Present that class got for me! YAY! I LOVE YOU ALL!!

Update more picture soon!

2008-08-09T21:36:00.008+08:00

BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!
Well all i can say is before school start everyone is counting down to school but when school starts! OMG! everyone brought those holiday mood into school, seriously no mood to school and everyone is trying their best to adapt to the school. And we basically missed the good old foundation days, can't really get use to the class i'm having now but starting to like my class more and more every single day.

Talk abit more about my class, classes starts at 9am everyday which is good cause it ended early as well. The latest class i have ends at 4.30 to 5pm, homework comes in at the beginning of school. And i can say my class really do have talented people, most of them are real good musician excluding me haha! Er only 3 guys in my class so have to keep a look out to the guys in other course and it sounds kind of desperate lol! Class people are starting to get bonded which is good, planned to start our very own band since we're all so talented! Oh yes not forgetting, my classroom are mostly working in school theatre and to let you know i call all theatre winter classroom. Because they are seriously damn cold and you might just freeze to death without a jacket/hoodies, even the tap water in the toilet i freezing cold. Lastly, my course Technical Theatre Arts have to attend first aid course!

Yesterday, Lasalle had their very own welcoming event for new students. But all students are invited to the party too. The catering was good, and it's the f'irst time to see school having such good food. The performance was good too, the drama, the acting, the air guitaring and those singing was good, especially our dear foundation classmates Ferdi sang well. And Lasalle is selling their very own hoodies, colour in ash grey and the word LASALLE will be fully embroidered in the school colour with black lettering and a thing navy blue edging. Sounds like and "ang moh" school having their school hoodies. Well i'm getting one together with my other foundation classmates since most of my classes are winter class.

Alright 5 more days to getting older day, no plans for it school and first aid course spoilt my plan of going timbre. Maybe just go out and eat with different group of friends the week after next! Grace soon after so long i finally met you yesterday, let's go out and have some fun!

Picture time!

Basement B109 Foundation area

Orientation Day!

Orientation Day! Student Volunteer group picture

First day of school, with foundation classmate

More picture to come in soon!

Seriously missed Foundation alots, but as alex my bro said life have to moved on! Wish you all the best ya and you know what i mean!

Lastly i just feel like saying WHATEVER! Because i just don't like that attitude!

2008-08-01T10:18:00.010+08:00

Busy month this month.
Lecturer called me down to help her with some poster design and so in total i've designed 8. Sign up for the student voluteer to help out in the orientation and there's band graduation night and band outdoor performance and 11aug the pulau ubin outdoor performance and lastly "rehersal" for the church's christmas musical performance.

Band graduation night, hmm can it's a successful one. Good job sec 3! Though the alumni item was ....... hahaha.

Pictures: Grad Night

Introducing the Nerdy sisters Lolx!

Nerdy 1

Nerdy 2

Sini and me, notice that the picture is blur?

Moral of the story never let sanche handle the camera.

And so this week had been busy with the school orientation and was busy with, packing of goodie bag, carrying the stuff here and there, dry run on the campus tour and stuff like this.

Finally it's the orientation yesterday and we've got to reach school at 7.30am, well it's pretty fun and exciting cause can get to see different people but tiring.

Pictures: Before Orientation

There's a performance going on while packing

the goodie bag.

Things that's inside the goodie bag.

The most attractive in the bag are the student handbook &

vounchers.

The school T-shirt, can't really see the white text clearly.

Alright basically the picture is to tell you that,

above the shirt design is this human typography design.

Haven't receive and picture on the orientation yet, will update soon.

2008-07-01T10:46:00.029+08:00

It's 1st July and yesh, it's a brand new month and a brand new start.

As i say that i gonna blog about how i spent my half a year wisely. And it's gonna be the longest blog i have so far, i guess!

January 2008

School start on 5th Jan, life in school was fun, exciting and busy. Semester 2 was totally in a mess. School work is forever never ending, had presentation and lots of essay to complete.

Picture of life in school,

I.T Lesson

As you can see how "stress" we are in the mac lab.

The result of students kind of smarter then lecturer and they gone crazy in class.

Work I produce in I.T Lesson, Work title: Horoscope

Aries

Leo

And glad to say i've got high marks for the two digital work above. It's the truth not i show off [hao lian].

CCS Group Presentation Day

My presentation group name: Art Noveauism

February 2008

School is as usual busy and not forgetting Chinese new year is reaching. Preparing new year stuff and all. And in somehow and in some way i found 2 great friends which is Grace and Yun. They're the one that brought in light into my darkness life. And yea i bet they know what i'm saying.

Pictures of CNY:

Day 2 of CNY

At the Science Centre

Oh by the way i forgotten to mention above, Grace's father's friend came over to Singapore together with his daughter Chloe. So they[Grace, Yun and Jaslin] brought her around Singapore, but i only able to join them to science centre, because i've got school and i was down with high fever WTH. But after all it was fun!

March 2008

School was super duper busy because assessment is reaching. Too many project to be complete, but like the photography project the best. And also not forgetting, this month is Grace's birthday!

Pictures

Photography lesson, my partner aka my "gum" friend

Thanks Ferdi for the picture

Taken by Self make pin hole Camera

Taken by Seagull SLR camera

And it's the only best shot i've got cos that damn camera

cap pop up and spoilt my film!

Grace's Birthday @ Fish n Co

Happy Family @ TM

And together we're "The Outcast"

April 2008

Yes this month was a very busy month indeed. Busy with Impressions 9 concert, Founder's Day, Superband, School assessment and then School Holidays. Stress!

Pictures

Guest players and Alumni players outside S.C.H

Grace, Me and Prue

Founder's Day and i've receiving 2 years service award [Sai kang award].

Superband number tag!

May 2008

School holidays finally started after the long war we've fight[Assessment]. Bought an electric guitar to self learn at home but at the same time looking for a job, but sad to say is all the resume you send out didn't get any reply. Classmate still count the number of resume she sent. And finally nearly end of May popular called me up to be their admin stuff. So worked for them to earn some cash though it's quite a slacking job but enjoyed. Oh yes, the new car we bought has arrive and it's damn cool. No pictures to upload for this month.

June 2008

Second day of june go help popular to tear down. And the spent my rest of the day rotting at home. 11 June Sini left for Laos for school voluntary work. Met up with Rachel Kwan, jaslin and the usual gang up for Sakae sushi, having lots of fun talking nonsense. When sentosa with Grace, Yun and shun, it was fun though it rain almost the whole day. Church day camp was good, enjoyed the captain's ball and the blood donation the most i think lolx.. Played for church camp first day worship, first time playing really felt kind of scary but good experience. 21 June, sini is back from laos. School started for Sp-er and i'm rotting at home once again. Counting down the days to wait for school reopen and i still left 35 more days? The last day of june went all the way to Jurong east to be an assistant artist to help out in the biennale festival. Painting and dripping paint on the big piece of board, squat till leg ache but after all it's fun and good experience.

Pictures:

Sushi Outing with the Family

Jaslin thanks for the picture!

Sentosa Outing! Cool!

A small part of the painting

Picture of 2 big painting

Instead of dripping paint on the board we decided to drip on our shoe

So i guess that's about all for how i spent my half a year in 2008, hope i didn't miss out anything. Leading a good life and i'm enjoying my life now!!

2008-06-27T12:58:00.002+08:00

Haiz, first time in my life felt so lazy like really lazy to go out and all.

Have been rotting at home for almost a week, well can say that i'm turning into a big fat pig.

Got dig out of bed yesterday just to go jogging with my "lovely" sister at the stadium and sad to say i only ran one round and walk one round. A good start, at least i ran one round non stop. Haiz, really don't know what's wrong with me, just really feel damn lazy. Stay at home say bored, go out say lazy, What the hell! Recently this dead mood or e-mo spell have been clinging on to me and it feels suck. Suppose to meet up with grace and the rest today, but then again the dead mood/e-mo spell change my mind and decided to stay at home.

I've this thought that's running in my mind this few days while rotting at home, thinking that i shouldn't celebrate the b-day. All i can do is after school go home and sleep, don't have to bother friends to prepare and think of what to do for me. Maybe the e-mo spell is doing the it's job by making me think all this stuff. Hmm but maybe i should consider doing it.

Anyway my lecturer call me up just now to ask if i'm free on monday, asked me to be an assistant artist for some artist for a exhibition or something. Sound cool but then again it's at Boon lay, the other side of Singapore. So 1 day down next week.

2008-06-23T13:02:00.014+08:00

Finally it's a brand new week and school term start once again. Bad news is i'm rotting at home once again, 42 more days to school term start for me, Haiz! Anyway wanna thank my friends for entertaining me for the past 3 weeks while they're having their school holidays!

Anyway last week was a busy and fun week.

Monday, was eating marathon with Grace and Yun and watch superband. Huat arh! If you watch you'll know what i mean by huat arh!

Tuesday, rotting day at home, did abit of designing for the outcast!

Wednesday, went Sentosa with Grace, Yun and Shun. It rain almost half a day and we just spent time eating talking at subway and play card games. Pictures below but still got some pictures that i haven't get from shun.

Thursday, went church day camp, fun with all the balls game especially captain's ball and i played drums for the song, well pretty nervous but good experience.

Friday before going church camp brought shun to sinseh and the went to the blood bank, unfortunately i can't donation my blood cos me, myself low in blood. WTH!

Saturday, rot at home in pain and bad mood the whole freaking day, my so call extra muscle on my top right chest there hurts and i couldn't breathe properly and every moment i make feels like one of the vein in my will snap off, like omg! Then at night i felt it grew bigger like i specially train only the right side only, lolx. And Sini is back from Laos!

Sunday, woke up around 9 plus-10, wash up and head down straight to the doctor. The queue was pretty long, and so waited for an hour plus. See the doctor was given 2 kinds of painkiller and muscle relax pill and she say if 2 days later if the muscle still hurts have to go for x-ray. Woah sound so serious but use to it already, i've week body system. After that went lunch with parent and head down to church.

Anyway i felt better already, thought it's still kind of hurt alittle and alittle swallon.

Sentosa Outing Pictures:

Me, Yun and Grace

Me and Yun

I've got no idea what she's looking at?

Yun, Me, Shun and Grace

Grace is too busy taking pictures of bloobs!

That she don't even know what happen beside her.

Grace call this Bloobs!

Failed to take a group picture!

Another group picture that failed!

Shun, Yun and Grace trying to kiss yun in the tram!

Me, Yun and Grace walking to Vivo.

The stupid card game we played says that i'm her stalker! Hahaha

That's all for pictures, will upload more when i get it.

I miss school already!

2008-06-17T10:52:00.007+08:00

The Outcast logo

The Outcast members

Superband Number 4110!

Yesterday was the premiere of the superband in channel u, well haha was pretty excited about it and was kind of hoping to see us. And yes we did appear, on the cheering part where we shouted HUAT ah! and the cheer came out damn last min though, and also Jaslin singing. But we're glad that we're not under their bad categories for example: Sing half way they ask us to stop, Sing till we crack the sound(po yin) and others. Phew! At least we're not that bad i guess. Anyway, The Outcast will continue their passion in singing and jamming lolx.

Lunch out with yun and grace, it was totally a eating day yesterday in our kampong.

Oh yes tomorrow is sentosa outing, it's gonna be fun yea!

48 more days to school! Omg still so long!

Gonna blog about the fun and exciting life i had for the past 6 months soon!

Cool!

2008-06-14T22:19:00.003+08:00

Received a letter from school today.

RESULTS,

Tan Shi Yi, Student I.D:98**, NRIC: S8******H

Class: VS2J - Level 0, Foundation Visual studies. Grade Average 55.00 ( i can do a better job)

Remarks: Pass. Progress to level 1. Technical Theatre Arts.

Commencement date of acdemic year 2008 Semester 1 (Aug to Dec 2008).

Please note that the new academic year will commence on Monday, 4 August 2008.

Faculty of Performing Arts and Integrated Studies, Technical Theatre Arts.

S$ per Semester for Singaporean/Permanent Resident Students with Tuition Grant, 2,445.00 for Level 1 & 2.

Like OMG! School fee increase and Still got 51 more days to school starts, yea as you can see how bored i am at home still can count down to how many days to school. Life at home is just so bored man!

Anyway thursday went jamming in church with grace, yun, matthew and shun. And dinner with Rachel kwan, Jaslin, yun, lin and lin's friend at Sakae. Muhahahaha, lots of fun gossiping, chatting, alots of nonsense, laughing non stop, scolding each another like nobody's business. And also rachel where are the pictures lolx, upload already send to me yea! Lastly my shoulder blue black got bigger thanks to all for rubbing, haha i've got a nice temp tattoo.

16 June got class outing still thinking if i should go, woah kao! But it's clashes with the timing where be make our choice to be a band. 2 more days and I so gonna watch superband on channel u, haha and laugh at ourself even though we didn't make mistakes. See how to class outing!

Coming wednesday sentosa outing, woohoo. Kind of can't wait for it, wanna go kayaking. Lots of fun yea!

Thurs and Fri church day camp, heard from chuan dao we'll be going Prison on thurs to tour around and to let us know what's call freedom. Fri going red cross for blood donation, arh sound so scary but heard that it's good so we'll see.

Anyway simple and nice is the key word,

to us chim/big words is just only an act.

I shall update about the life i have for the past half a year in 2008.

2008-05-29T10:47:00.004+08:00

Past one or two weeks i have been working for like the 8 days i think? Aiya whatever, anyway enjoying life at the Popular as admin, feels good i should say less stress and get to communicate with the managers and staff inside COOL. Anyway i'm out of job again lolx, sitting at home and rot and be a rich man daughter haha, in my dreams.

Went church on sunday service was good. After that went to grace's family bbq, yea it was fun.

Anyway 16th June class outing with the cool people, yesh like finally. I miss you all man. but i think i won't be joining you guys for dinner!

I.T show this week wanna go and grab some stuff, woohoo damn happy.

This coming thursday gonna jamming and dinner out with people i've never seen for a very long time. Let's gossip, chat, eat and laugh together man!

Counting down to the days that we make our choice to be a band The Outcast! hahaha 6 more days to go. Arhhhhhhh let's sit down and laugh at ourself together, but in the first place we didn't really have mistake so don't have to worry that much. Lolx.

2008-05-17T10:38:00.003+08:00

Technical Theatre Arts here I come!

Woohoo! yesh i've entered technical theatre arts for my specialism course. Interview on Wednesday was a success! Have a good interview cum chat with my future lecturer name shan ann. And reason i know i got into tta is because he say okay i'm going to approved your application to the office. Partly i think i got in is because he say i played an instrument and got abit of stage management experience. But afterall i'm happy yea, Well god have planned something different for me to do though. Anyway i wanna study sound design man, sounds cool yea! And i'm studying something similar with yun and grace on the live sound part.
Haiz one bad thing, i gonna miss my classmate man. Damn saddening different class and somemore no more cool people gang. HEY COOL PEOPLE WE GO OUT MAKAN AND CHILL OUT MORE OFTEN YEA!

Alright after resting for so long i got two jobs like finally after apply for so many job and don't know how many resume i've send out!!!! Asked mr. sim for a job lobang then he reply okay i might need your help to teach kuo chuan sec 1 next friday. As you know i've been rotting at home like a pig obviously will ask got pay anot, surprisingly he say have! Awesome! Then second job is working at the popular again, i don't know why they like me so much keep calling me go work for them?! not bhb la but serious i always thought that i give damn bad impression after the last time i work for them, late for don't know how many times. Aiya whatever!!!!!!! Cash come in to me is the best thing ever. Anyway popular fair starts on the 23 may to 1 june @ expo and please don't come find me cos i don't want to see you.

Going off already meeting up my cool people gang for tau huay near school miss school lots man. And last yamaha sale gonna see what i can get there so gonna get a guitar gig bag and stand.

2008-05-10T09:16:00.006+08:00

There goes my major in comm.d dream.
Yesterday lecturer betty, give me wrong info in the morning saying i got into comm.d and then she crash it in the afternoon saying i didn't get into comm.d and also said that the info wasn't update earlier. Why like that?
Since i can't get into comm.d and now i've been transfer to my second choice i've selected which is T.T.A [Technical theatre art].
One of the foundation lecturer Dahlia emailed to ask us check email regularly for information about the interview from T.T.A[Technical theatre art] office .

Emailed between Dahlia and myself:

Email from me to lecturer:
Sorry to disturb dahlia,
Do you know what's the percentage of chance to get into TTA? Because Comm. D was my first choice and was damn dissappointed that i didn't get in. Then TTA is my hope now? Thank you!

Reply from Lecturer to me:
I am totally not sure about that. It depends on Shao Ann, person in charge of TTA. He will be interviewing you. Ya I know about the Comm D situation, that is why we organising your 2nd choice now. Hope it goes ok for you.
dahlia

Haiz, now waiting for the next interview, my second choice T.T.A I've select out of 6 choices. Putting all my hope into T.T.A for now. Hope i can get into this course, feeling like i'm a ball now and being throwing around into different courses. Like WTF, the lecturer who marked me you better fark off in my life you colour blind freak. People who did not as good as me also can get into comm.d why i can't? He/She drawing is like monster and still can get into comm.d, at least my portrait drawing is still like human.
WHATEVER LA. No point saying all this afterall decision has been make, at least i passed with a farking D not fail. T.T.A here i come. God have a better plan for me! Pray hard for getting into T.T.A!

2008-05-09T09:58:00.002+08:00

Yay! bought a electric guitar!

Finally we had our class outing, bbq at east coast park. Well should say it's a successful one though not the whole class turn up. Two lecturer Erzan and betty turn up for the bbq wow can say it's cool, Erzan loves to play with fire and he take away my job for cooking the food. Lolx, bbq food was great though didn't really get enough so ended up have to get more food.

And come to surprise that betty is so interested in guitar, she get so excited and wanted to get a guitar asap. hahaha, anyway our class peeps gonna give her a surprise on her birthday which is reaching soon. And i guess you all know what's the surprise gonna be. Erzan as usual still cooking and playing with the fire, next time when he old he's gonna be the artistic bbq man. Lolx.

Played the future game with poker cards, a game is about who you will marry. Taking out 4 Kings for girl and 4 Queens for guys, name the 4 Kings example the guys you like a, b, c, d! Ha, betty played the game and it was pretty fun but question we asked are all damn innocent and clean. Until we played all the stupid nonsense all come out, surprisingly betty's innocent image was spoilt by her own. Quess who i marry????? Not telling you! Muahahaha. Will posted the pictures one i got it.

Yesterday was the Comm D interview, feels like it's another assessment for us. Also felt lost because it's like we don't know what's going to happen and stuff, just tell us that they're going to update us thru mail. SCARY!!! Really hope that i'll get into COMMUNICATION DESIGN! If not then really die die is T.T.A [Technical Theatre Arts] already. Leaving everything in god's hand maybe he've got better plan for me.

Rotting at home already, finally got called up for a job interview later. Hope i can get the job.

2008-05-02T21:55:00.004+08:00

FARK, THAT'S TOTALLY CRAP!

Supposingly was going for a guitar shopping today and then I receive a phone call this afternoon from lecturer in charge saying that thought i pass assessment but got a FARKING "D GRADE" like WTF!!!! People whom most of us think that they shouldn't get better grade got better then me FARK LA! WHY LIKE THAT,DAMN UNFAIR and i'm super angry and pissed off now. Still say attendance plus work= to pass. Yes i pass but why D, people got D didn't bring their work didn't do work also D i did all still a D why why why why why why. What's the point of working so hard without sleeping for so many nights!!!!!!!! NAH BEH!

Anyway mum wanted to get me an electric drumset, but then again my mind tell me Apple Mac book is better. Very well between this two i've got to choose one and make up my mind with Apple Mac book. Haiz, now the assessment thing happen get mac book also no use if i didn't get into Comm. D. Really pray hard that i can get into Comm.D, i really want to do advertising la. The first time i work so hard and first time get so dissapointed with the D which i think i should get better, woah lau really feel like crying man! Well, i'm happy to have such a supportive lecturer, the first one that really encourage me alot! Show you what she've emailed us this afternoon!

My lovely children Helmi, Sage and Fatin :), please do not get too stressed about this Interview. You all have passed the Foundation year, you will enter Year 1 for sure, so don't worry. Just try your best on this Interview day - physically and mentally prepared, be polite to the Design lecturers, wear tidy and presentable clothes, give them a good image of yourself and dare to speak up and don't forget to smile. My pray will be for you all okay.

For Helmi: All the best. Be clear and polite with them, and put your smile okay!!

For Sage: As I said, I believe in you, don't' worry. [She only say that short to me because she sms and talk to me this afternoon]

For Fatin: Just be who you are, show them whatever you have. If they don't want you at the end, it is their lost.

Ok, these are the details given by the Design Department. All the best, I will pray for you on that day okay!!!

Love,
Betty

Met up with Yun and Grace just now, don't know what to say in fact thing happen la just go home together. They just busy talking about their school and stuff. Haiz, anyway bought a guitar chords book, suddenly so into guitar i also don't know why!!

Stress is coming again
Getting depression soon!!!!

2008-05-01T11:31:00.003+08:00

Oh yes assessment for everyone finally ended! And Everyone finally can get a good rest. TERM BREAK some how offically start!

Haiz, now i think everyone is resting too much, becoming damn lazy and nuaing at home. Classmate and all need the money for living, apply for job still waiting for reply.

Haiz, why my friend having holiday i got school? and now it's my turn to have holidays they have school? Damn it man, at home damn sian.

When is class outing? Faster organise, i'm like rotting at home!!!!!!!

2008-04-25T12:14:00.011+08:00

Haven't been blogging for the past 20+ over days. Was busy with alot of things like Impressions 9 concert, Founder's day, 3D Project, Some other things The Outcast took part in and then my school assessment. And finally i'm here today to blog, feeling kind of stress-free thought still got the result to worry about!

Talk about Impressions 9 first, Well i think it's a successful concert afterall i did alot of sai kang lolx and also need to thank yun, grace, Samuel yau, guests player and the rest who helped me. Without you all the concert won't be a success. Some how i think Impressions 9 this concert things went out fast and smooth, it's feels like a so called" Rehersal" with people watching us. Haha any way pictures taken before Impressions 9.

Pictures before concert:

SP Guest player and St. Hilda's Alumni.

Grace, me and Yun @ Singapore Conference Hall.

Sebrina, Me and Jaslin, waiting for the time to past!

Yun and Me... haha nothing to do!

During the Concert!:

Samuel Yau and Me @ the backstage

After Concert!:

Top left: Me, Sebrina Bottom Left: Nurul, Grace

The back view of us!

Alright Assessment is finally over! For the past few days before assessment everyone just didn't get enough sleep. When you go online you can see all lasalle student busy or away nickname always counting down the numbers of days to assessment. And now for comm.d student haha yesh assessment is finally over. Yesh!! Now still waiting for result, heard from teacher it should be good news! Woohoo, which mean it should be a passed! Yay can go celebrate and enjoy life and also get enough sleep! Lack of sleep arh!

2008-04-01T19:24:00.003+08:00

Happy April Fool's Day!
Trick my friend by telling them i'm attach but the fact is i'm not, they actually believe it but ya didn't tell them happy april fool's day! I've got fooled by my friends today in the afternoon. You all actually use this kind of thing to fooled me, ya thanks alot! Enjoyed it, but lucky was smart enough to sit down and listen to it. The planning of the story is ... i don't know what to say.

Anyway problems between a friend and i was solve few days ago. Talking it out thru phone saying out the feelings and stuff. Months of problem in me is finally solved, now just let the time do the healing.

Impressions 9 this coming friday, can say it's exciting!
Tickets are selling well, oh well months of hard work didn't go down to the drain. Tickets really make me stress, sometimes wonder why am i doing this kind of job!
Practices are good so far, get to know more interesting friends. 3 more days to impressions 9!

OMG Assessment is coming stress out man, Just hope that i'll promote to Year 1!!!!
Talking about homework aiya sian got headache man!!!!

Tomorrow is a friend of mine birthday! Happy Birthday DB!

2008-03-23T16:29:00.008+08:00

!!!HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GRACE!!!

Wish all your wishes come true!!!!!

Yesterday went for alumni band practice, er should say not bad i think. Anyway selling tickets for IMPRESSIONS 9, contact me for the tickets.

IMPRESSIONS 9

Celebrated grace's birthday at fish n co yesterday, lots of fun and also thanks Mark for helping me getting the cake. Enjoyable day out with The Outcast!! woohoo!

Let the picture do the talking...

Fish & Co after food!

Sexy Grace and me muahahaha

At Fish & Co with clown hats

GRACE standing on the chair!

THE OUTCAST!!!

2008-03-15T11:00:00.003+08:00

G and Y, you're greatly missed by me! Lolx...

Yesterday was the last day of our beloved FFS2J class to be together. From next week onwards specialism class gotta start. Wanna thank the class for giving me a wonder memories in school.

Arh!!! Assessment coming soon and mean LOTS of homework to clear and complete, next week got presentation on tuesday and yet still haven't done with my presentation. Photography lesson, gotta hand up the project by tuesday as well OMG!! Still got a few drawing to touch up, 2D final project to complete, Crap man serious. Too much homework till you actually don't even know where to start from. Lucky 3D group project is almost done.

The Outcast had finally had our very first jamming. Reason for naming our band The Outcast, C.A.S.T is form up by all our surname. In order to make it into more english we decided to name it as The Outcast. Currently doing my 2D finally project on The Outcast, making a packaging for the band and let hope it's a success.

Lastly selling out tickets for IMPRESSIONS 9,
04:04:08, Singapore Conference Hall
Ticket is at S$15.00 [Please contact asap for good seat]
Interested please contact me, Thanks

2008-03-05T20:21:00.003+08:00

Woohoo! It's been long ever since i last update. Er thanks Denise for the talk and i think i'm quite a happy person now haha.

Anyway had a week break last week, say nice is a week break but the fact is where got 1 week!? Had high fever for the past few days last week, damn it i think it's the wisdom tooth that's doing it's thing.

Well school was fun i suppose, especially photography lesson. A lesson that you'll never want to miss out besides having ah pek [K.C. Tan] as our lecturer. Had photography workshop yesterday, using Seagull SLR camera to take picture with black and white film was exciting except for the camera cap suddenly pop out and distroy some of our pictures. Developing of the film was FUN indeed! Oh yesh! Gotta thank F for the picture!!!

Picture of yesterday's photography lesson!

Denise and Myself...

Stress out with the freaking homework, Drawing Fundamental, Drawing Development, 2D, 3D, CCS Presentation. OH MY GOODNESS! My homework mountain is so so so so high up! Assesment is coming so soon, shit gotta chiong.

Gotta go and chiong homework update real soon again!

2008-02-17T13:10:00.011+08:00

Before i forget, Happy Chinese New Year Folks!

Though this year i've totally got no new year mood at all.

Had a week break on the chinese new year week, which is good and bad!

CNY first day was pretty alright i guess, kindly of tiring clean that all cos all of my relatives came over to my house. Because ah ma was at our place this year! Didn't took any pictures for that so ya!

CNY second day had to go all the way to Boon lay to ban nian together with one of my auntie's family, which is pretty tiring. But having fun taking photos with cousins!

Pictures:

2nd Day of CNY!

Gina and myself in one of our grand-aunt house.

Then went to catch a movie with cousin last sunday. We watched Ah Long Pte Ltd, just another funny and lame show but consider not that bad after all. Kenny Roger's for dinner and do abit of shopping to digest, ha! And thanks for sending me home Ben!

Cousins' Outing @ one of the Cafe in suntec

13th Feb, Valentine's Day eve was bro birthday Happy Birthday Bro!

Bro on his birthday with his lover tigger!

14th Feb was Valentine's Day! Well as usual no date for years, but actually i did date a guy from my school but unfortunately he was busy rushing his CCS Presentation! Oh well...

When for my cousin Louis's 21 birthday yesterday, well i can say it's a simple and memorable one. Getting to meet cousin's bf and gf and where's my bf .Also having cousin's bonding together and once again family gathers. Well i still haven't get the other pictures we've taken yesterday from uncle richard yet. Only having female cousins bonding pictures.

Cousins!

Wondering how's my 21st birthday going to be like? A happy one or a emo and sad one? Just got to wait and see.

Oh by the way came across with something i saw at my aunty's house. A postcard picture really attracted me. So decided to take down the picture.

Make Friends Not War!

And yar i've been making alot of friends for the past 21 years of my life and i've never came across with a war i'm having now. And i've just to wait for the right time to come and have it settle because now that's still fire in the hole now!
Thanks to friends that stay by my side and also thanks to other for trying to stay by my side!

Starting of 2008 is a bad year for me,
Hope everything will be fine as time pass.

2008-02-06T11:16:00.000+08:00

Monday school was boring, I.T lesson was totally like rotting in the class. When online shopping in school like wow! 2D lesson as usual nothing much just lecturer dump more homework and project to you. Great!?

When shopping for shoes with G and Y yesterday, thanks alot for accompanying me and talks to let me know more about what's going on. Knowing so much thing that i don't even know thru out the straight 4 weeks.

Alright, I know i'm not suppose to blog all about this right now to spoilt the Chinese New Year mood but, a blog is for me to say out what and how i'm feeling now. Before i say anything, i wanna say i'm sorry for what i've done thru the sms and the past blog i've blog, but now i'm blogging about this is to let you understand.

I'm been spending the past 4 weeks emo-ing because you're my friend. Reliase i became more stupid and blur from emo-ing, even when a car approaching towards me i also don't know and i've seriously lost all my drawing skills and even i surprise my lecturer.
Emo-ing thru out the straight 4 weeks and now knowing the truth that my emo-ing was kind of pointness. While i emo over here, the other side don't. And yes, of course i know that it's my fucking fault for being irritating to send you messages while you're studying.

But in all i've never thought of sms can led to things like you actually think that "I LIKE YOU?" And not only think that i like you but also think that I'm a lesbian. It's pretty upset, hurting, angry, disappointed and unbelievable when i heard it. It's kind of fucking ridiculous alright, Disappointed, upset and angry is because after knowing me all this while and you still don't know what kind of person i am?
In case your thinking runs wild again, friend to me plays a important part in my life. And a friend means a friend and i've a limit of knowing what to do and what i shouldn't do. And i'm a person that is very loyal to my friend(Jiang yi qi). Can you stop having the thinking of i'm a lesbian that actually like you? You're my friend and i'm not a lesbian as you think i am. I'M FUCKING STRAIGHT! Don't you remember i've a agreement with edmund?

Asking you to come out for a talk is just to settle the problems we had and not wanting this friendship just die like this. I know you're having your exam right now, i'll settle this problem after your exam. I don't know what you thinking about right now la huh, What i know is you don't even bother to settle this problem right now. Just want to leave this matter hanging like this, it's kind of unfair to me i think.

Blogging this is to let you know that i'm not a lesbian and i'm straight. And every single friends are important to me.

2008-01-31T11:29:00.000+08:00

ART NOVEAUISM TEAM!

Monday our team had our very first presentation on art noveau, Henri de Toulouse Lautrec and Louis Vuitton. Everything when out fine i guess but kind of nervous when you presenting, after all we haven't been presenting infront of so many people for a long time. Anyway, thanks to Ferdi and Shawn for the wonderful pictures though some of our group pictures are pretty blur due to using the wrong camera lens i think.

Pictures of Art Noveauism:

Art Noveauism: The gang of cool people

Art Noveauism I

Art Noveauism II

Art Noveauism III

Art Noveauism IV

Art Noveauism V

Alright after tomorrow's white project assessment gonna have 1 week break next week yay!!! Long break for chinese new year and also people in 2J class outing how? Plan asap ya!

2008-01-30T20:12:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to you Friend!

Today went school for like an hour and class dismiss kind of waste my time man! But anyway had fun having breakfast cum lunch with our lecturer angie, lots of crap talking and experience on how to earn money in a smart way. After makan-ing went shopping at bugis junction, yes bought something for chinese new year but well more to get. And yay tomorrow no school!! But the sian-ness thing is gotta go back at 6pm for the specialist talk. ARGH!

And btw, come to think that dream boy 1 is WEIRD! Knowing him not long ago and he wanna lend money from me just to get his "Ed Hardy Jacket" plus it's not like S$2.50 but it's 200+ bucks okay OMG! Dream boy no more!

Friday is white project assessment day feeling damn scary i think.

2008-01-26T00:24:00.000+08:00

Finally it's a friday again!

Woah, suddenly time file so fast soon it's coming to the end of January. School having Independant week 2 weeks later and soon gonna be ASSESSMENT. Kind of stress, but gotta chiong hard for it to pass foundation cos don't wanna major foundation again next year. Well having kind of problem from choosing the course i want. 5 choices given to make to major but still only have 2 in mind now how?

Anyway school this week kind of not bad i guess, nothing good and bad happen. Btw, dream boy 1 talk to me today to borrow Illustrator CD and another thing is my class people are more excited then me. He sounded like a small boy, but kind of g.*.y. Well but it's a good start after all and he finally knows who am i in school. Lolx

Alone, all by myself

2008-01-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

Recently somehow but don't know how, got so into Camera especially twin lense TLR camera.

My stupid classmate bought it at a very low price at somewhere near our school. Damn, today went camera hunt with 1 of my classmate. Well no sight of the camera we want near our school and went down to Penisular plaza. Found it but damn EXPENSIVE. Oh well gotta save up money and get one soon! Sian, gonna chiong research and drawing now.

Seagull Camera!!!!!!

Seagull 4A

Seagull( Don't know what model should be 4A-107 TLR Camera)

Seagull 120 TLR

Woohoo! I'm so gonna get one soon!

2008-01-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

OMG!!
I've saw a abnormal she-male yesterday outside my school bus stop!

Pretty not nice to take this picture, i know but well. Anyway today 3D was pretty fun, did all my joint project and turn out to be some interesting sadist toy. Oh well, come to think that i'm abit sadist ya lolx. Another thing, dream boy 1(d.b), don't even know who am i in school. Like how can it be man, by adding me thru friendster and facebook and he still don't know who am i. Well well gonna meet dream boy 1 on friday to borrow him my Illustrator cd-rom. Yesh! can't wait for friday to come lolx. Shut up sage!

Lastly wanna thank E, L and Y for the talk again! Feeling better already. Well just hope that everything will go back to normal again.

2008-01-19T09:18:00.001+08:00

Praying hard that everything will be gone.
GOD HELP ME!

2008-01-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry!
I've got nothing else to say but sorry!
Understanding you have alots of stress in school. And so do I.
All this nonsense is just making me going crazy and emo like shit and cannot eat and sleep well can't even concentrate in school and stuff. We need to talk it out, when you're free then contact me.

When n.y.d.c for dinner, couldn't shallow down the food. Having difficulties in breathing and eating recently, perhaps just brood alot of my friend and stuff. Glad to have understanding classmate, if not i think i'll never make it thru home today. Thinking just makes me stone and blur, later get knock down by a car i also don't know. Trying to relax but still damn tense up.
Class was boring today but Illustrator was fun!

A half dying human

2008-01-17T09:31:00.000+08:00

Knowing the truth that you find me irritating, then tell me instead. Of course i know you scare to offend me, but still at least tell me the truth that i'm irritating better then keeping me hanging in the middle of no where and don't know what's going on. Not knowing the truth only makes me emo like an idiot. Okay it's my fault i'm sorry! I guess dissappearing for the moment will help out alot.
Another thing a pieces of advice if you still continue reading. Knowing that getting a place in a match is important, but remember that your injuries aren't recover yet, legs are important then matches. Quickly go seek a doctor soon! Lastly, i did remember to go and take the extreme ride with you on your birthday which is soon. If you find me not irritating anymore then sms me again! And also take care of your leg. This is all i could say!

School this week as usual, drawing fundamental was kind of fun using charcoal to draw figure out and first time drawing development make us enjoy the lesson and without going home late. 3D class was yesterday, nothing much but having kind of problems with the group up for the projects. Which one should i go, groups of 3 where by i kind pity the guys where by they kind of being dump by the others or should i go to the group of 4 where by our project should slightly be bigger and more idea should come out?
Today it's thursday again, yesh no classes mean no stress but got homework to chiong arh!

St.hilda's alumni winds, aiming to have 20+ people for the practice this coming sat. If not i guess there's no point for a concert with the limited amount of people. Pray hard for the good attendance this sat!

2008-01-15T09:26:00.000+08:00

Friend of mine,

Giving you space and time alone,

I shan't be like a pest anymore and I'll disappear for the time being.

Don't have to apologise because it's not your fault. I should be the one who needs to apologise, I'm sorry. It's okay, I understand what you need and what i should do. But if you need a friend to help you out, i'll be the friend for you! Knowing that this friendship is turning bad, but hoping that this friendship will still be there. In somehow and some way i'll see you soon! Hoping that the bad things will be over soon!

Lastly please turn up for the shaw meeting this coming sat, though i know you won't be playing. Help me to make this concert a successful one, as i might be the president for this one last time. But still need you to help me out occasionally with the scores and everything. Alumni winds still welcome you once you are ready to play again.

Edited again, different from what i wrote this morning.

2008-01-14T20:46:00.001+08:00

Oh great dyed my hair, no more living in darkness.

Anyway from last week first day of school till now school was pretty okay except for the retrieval project. Mood wasn't very good due to a friend, i guess my friend like forgotten that i exist. Happening friend come and old friend go, this i how i feel for now not sure if it's really like this but maybe i was wrong? That's when my previous post that artwork came about. Where is that old friend i used to sms, go out together and shared problem together????

Something wrong with my left hand, just felt no strength and the thumb and index finger keep jumping by itself. Damn what's going on.

Next gonna work hard on alumni band, needed call all the members like before. Wanna this coming concert to be a successful one as i might be the president for the last time. Still hesitating if i should pass down my president post to another person? How? I seriously don't know what to do!

2008-01-11T18:12:00.001+08:00

Just finish this piece of artwork. A piece of artwork to describle my current my mood, 2008 year for me doesn't seem to look good at all, but hope that everything will turn out fine and normal to me again. Enjoy this artwork!

Title: My heart is bleeding

2008-01-09T15:42:00.001+08:00

Firstly wanna wish you all a Happy New 2008 Year!

Had lots of fun with my friends during the count down, but too busy cum lazy to upload the picture. But will upload once I'm free.

It's the 3rd day of school and i still having holidays mood. Kind of stress for this semester where by i gotta choose the course i gotta major in. In between this 2 courses i still didn't really make up my mind, " Advertising Design" or Technical Theatre Arts". Headaches arh!

Retrieval project can say it didn't went out quite successfully, need to redo the outdoor drawing. And here comes problem when you've got no idea where to go for drawing. Damn it!! It's just one more drawing and i gotta be free!

Currently this week hasn't be in a good mood at all, too many things in school to stress and friend ignoring stuff that you send out and lastly there comes S.H.A.W gonna perform for Impressions 9 together with the main band. School stuff is enough to stress up, gonna work damn hard cos i don't wanna major in foundation again WTF who wants! Friend stuff i still confuse about it and seriously don't know what to say or maybe i think too much? S.H.A.W, am i gonna make it a successful concert? It's not easy to be a president for a band i should say. Oh well all this problem can really make a person like me emo till i die.

Gonna end here to chiong my research will update soon!

Trying so hard to be my best but still useless in your eyes, tell me what should i do!

Where is my friend when i needed them or maybe who are my friends?

2007-12-26T10:45:00.000+08:00

Wishing all my friends Merry Christmas!!!

Oh yesh and again it's been long since i last blog. Okay updating the things i do ever since the school holidays start for me.

Beginning of school holidays, as you can see i'm quite piss with the retrieval project thingy and stuff. Then started doing the retrieval the next week with Carissa at starbucks while she was studying. Having fun drawing i guess, but now i still got 2 more drawing to finish up. SHIT!!!

Then after the studying week with carissa, it's working time. And our working journey begins from 14 Dec to 23 Dec 2007 and yes just ended not long ago. Can say it's enoyable, fun and quite a boring job. Well will let the pictures do the talking.

Pictures:

Our working station for the past 10 days!

Hakim [1] The Number 1 Stupid yet cute guy!

Funny Man or stick man! Pple guess how old is he!

Last Day of work!!:

Fatin[From Toyo Department], Carissa & Myself

Last day of work at Popular with the Kim Square brothers!

So gonna miss the nonsense from them!!!

Ducky club! Lolx!

Alright then went out on Christmas' Eve [Monday] with Fatin and Carissa to Vivo City, well the outing was fun and enjoyable. And also we know fatin for like less then 10 days, we actually can click so well. Good! Oh yes! that freaking milkshake makes my stomach feel so unwell. Okay picture on Christmas Eve!

Pictures:

Beautiful Christmas Tree @ Vivo City

Fatin and me

Myself with Fatin and Carissa

Fatin, Carissa and Myself

And Carissa, i know how you feel for this christmas. Well, if they got the heart they will asked you out eventually, and if they don't then don't think too much of them, no one will know how you feel. Understand? Well, though i know you not as long as them, somemore from different era lolx, but one thing is i'm a friend you can count on. You fu tong xiang, you nan tong dang!!! Remember this ya! Kaoz like selling myself out.

Went out to auntie's place for christmas celebration yesterday, er it's kind of bored but got to see how much changes my cousins become. Kind of sad when almost all of the cousin got bf and gf. Saddening i'm still working hard to find my the other half. LOLX!!

Anyway not sure if going out tonight with my band buddies! But sure gonna plan outing for counting down!! Update soon again.

2007-12-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

YESH!!! Finally holiday!Yippie!

Supposingly this holiday is for me to rest and relax and get a job for money$, but now all plan change. Please pardon me for the vulgar words that's gonna appear in this blog. My Fucking gay lecturer fail my drawing development subject, whereby i suppose to pass with either a C or a D. Bloody E appear in my result which totally turn me off. My friend and I was so fucking pissed at that moment, because people didn't hand up the homework on time or not having enough drawing PASS and seriously speaking their drawing ain't really up to standard and we these people chiong day and night to finish up homework on time and our standard are those can make it one FAILED. What is this man, seriously speaking i'm pretty confused with the marking. That gay lecturer still this say " If you hand in all your work, there shouldn't be a reason that i'll fail you". WTF!! All his words are just empty, say but didn't do it. Still think that it's pretty unfair to us who deserve to pass. In Lasalle, i've put in so must effort work so hard and this is what i get???? Anyway, my other lecturer couldn't believe that we fail so gonna complaint to her man. AND i gonna thanks the gay lecturer for that holiday gift( retrieval project) 3 freaking drawing to do.

2007-11-21T10:41:00.000+08:00

Presenting my sexy Trotter Leg, Muhahahahahaha!

Very "Sexy" indeed (Disgusting)

Alright i miss the mount kerb and i fell on sunday and then ended up like this, plus i can hear the solid crack when i fall. Oh well thank god i didn't break my leg, but still this is the worst sprain i ever had. Ouch! Limp to school on monday and see a doc, having a painul silent scream when the doc lift my leg up. Finally today i remove the bandage but still limping la Sian.

Anyway updating the picture of the bbq, Enjoy!

Enjoy the bbq-ing the food!

Drinking Competition, sad to say no alcohol contain.

Look at Ferdi's face expression.

And the competition began

VS1J, the coolest group of people in class

Printmaking class was great yesterday though it was our last lesson. Printed our very own tee shirt and yesh we gonna wear it to school today. This week gonna be a stressful week, REVIEWING Week. Lecturer gonna check on all our project and work, sometimes i do think that i rather have exams.

Gotta prepare for school, update soon.

2007-11-11T10:48:00.000+08:00

Yay my blog is rotting once again!

Alright gonna update things happen from 2 to 3 weeks ago.

27 Oct when for shopping and drink at Tcc with Carissa and at the same time we go see her sunshine boy! Btw there's a couple sitting beside us keep on listening to our conversation, irritating. Haha, anyway it's a fun and enjoyable day. Only got 2 picture and i decided not to show.

This week is week 13 for school, having a independant week so don't have to go school.
Monday went over to alex's house for bbq at the same time we wanna give Grace a farewell party as she's leaving school. Guess what happen, the party turn out to be Grace's Farewell party without grace isn't it funny. Oh well, we just treat it as another class outing. Standing for almost 5 hours to bbq all the food, but worth standing because i don't want to eat half raw and cook food. Photos still waiting for people to send me.

Tuesday went for band practice woah finally got to go band after so long and they were practising Digital Prism. Cos sec 1 are playing this piece for "Impressions 9" next year. As usual still got quite alot of people didn't attend band practise i wonder why. When holidays starts i gonna go back catch they. Oh yesh! Alumni is playing for IMPRESSIONS 9, Yay! A levels people are coming back to play and more people this year, can't wait for it! Anyway alumni practices will start once i get the scores.

Wednesday(Deepavali Eve), went out with Carissa and Bern. Tan. Wanted to chiong but ended up reach home at 12.30pm. Oh well, next time gonna chiong till i die. Alright went Marina Square for dinner at Swensen's OMG! my second round. After dinner, my stomach gonna burst, went for a walk at Clarke Quay, well i should say the night view of singapore are pretty. And then Bern. T abandon us at raffles place mrt station and went home, Feng and i just continue walking, shun bian go see her sunshine boy but he's not working that day. Oh well, Clarke Quay was crowded lots of foreigner. So went to Central's cheers to get alcohol, haha Feng got Breezer and i got this bloody jolly shandy. After drinks took a cab home, regret going home so early ended up playing Psp sian.

Anyway pictures:

Night Life at Clarke Quay

Carissa and me

Some Sexy Random Candid Shots of my haizi

Myself

Lastly, thinking of how to celebrate christmas!

2007-10-18T19:52:00.000+08:00

Was kind of late for I.S class today, lecturer was angry. And guess what she shouted at us, asking why are we late. Oh please, treating us like a secondary school student? No way man, gotta be kidding. So we just go up and apologise and mark late in our attendance. She's just crazy anyway we just don't really bother.

Reason of being late, we went marina square for seoul garden. And thanks to bugis outlet cause they having some private function there. We went all the way to marina square and then eat there happily. Simply eat like a pig, a few kg heavier lolx. Then after eating wanted to take cab about to school but then guess what all the cab went by us are all hired. WTH, so we quickly chiong to take mrt back to school. Reach outside school, we saw grace and so have a talk and then quickly chiong back to school. And ya so that's about it.

Anyway i missed my hai-zi. Find one day we all shall go out and have fun.

S_A_G_E_`

2007-10-16T20:06:00.000+08:00

Okay my blog is rotting again and now fianlly i gonna update. Oh well school as usual, nothing much, daily life still filled with homework. Anyway first week of october is project week which mean a week holiday but the fact is the project week is for us to clear our mountain of homework.

Alright so during the holiday instead of homework went out with my class to sentosa. It's a fun day out with my class though not everyone was there. Yup so let the picture say it all then! but only a few cos the rest still haven't send me.

We are just too bored!

Childhood idol pose! Lolx.

After Sentosa outing, chiong homework again, what else.

And Photography project deadline is just next week and it's group work.I'm SORRY to say out this but i'm seriously Dissapointed with some of members in my group, they really make me think that they doing last min job and they didn't give out the job to us properly ended up 2 members in my group doing nothing(i'm not pissed with the guys). And then yesterday i chiong the photo editing part already somehow pissed me off, and plus mum nag here and there i got really bad mood. This morning go school freaking early don't know do what shit, my group members came, ask them what have they done. Guess what they reply, oh oh i haven't do this and that, so the lay out do already answer no!!! FREAK! my volcano it's about to blow and they know that i damn piss cos i just keep quite the whole entire lesson make them guilty. My poor friends(zy and alex) have to hear all my complaint and everything. I really don't know what to say!

Todays drawing lesson sux! Can't draw much, redo and redo and redo. 3 times straight, wasted 3 pieces of paper, imagine how many tree have been kill by me. Lame! Don't feel like doing homework now! Tired and Sian!

2007-09-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

Yay!!!

Remember i said m eye candy in school, his name is dbyh and he is a year older then me plus he's single. Retarded me found his info in friendster, muhahahaha. Anyway yesh tomorrow is friday again, next week holidays yay!!!

Nothing much to blog nowadays, haiz. Next week will be a fun week i hope.

2007-09-26T19:48:00.000+08:00

Yay finally got to blog again today, finally free. By the way i found my eye candy in school and he's in VS1P class but not sure how old is he, gonna ask my PPD Lecturer tomorrow. Woohoo, Muhahahahahahaha, if got his picture i'll post it. Well getting along well in school, class getting more and more bonded each day. Miss my haizi haven't seen them for awhile lolx. SEE I MISS YOU ALL, everyday flip thru the book you all give me and see your Sexy beautiful face.

Anyway next week having 1 week holiday, project week. Yay!! plans coming up, er Monday going national library with the usual school gang to chiong photography project, Wednesday SENTOSA haha really hope it's gonna be fun. The rest of the days i don't know what to say, haiyo my shopping friend is going korea, bring back a handsome korean alright.

Luckily i've completed all the homework EXCEPT BLOODY 3D if not next week plan all gone. Seriously speaking 3D is fun but then the work really sux, hand and finger got cut here and there, shirt got tear and stuff.

WTH tomorrow is a slacking day, not bring my brain to school tomorrow lolx, i'm full of nonsense. Hope i can see him tomorrow.

Will post up pictures after editing.

2007-09-15T09:32:00.000+08:00

Yay! It's saturday again.

Gonna have alumni band practices this coming afternoon. It's been awhile since i last blog man.

On monday night, classmates and i planning on what to eat for lunch tomorrow which is tuesday afternoon due to the 2 and a half hours break. Decided to eat something good so sakae is our choice. Tuesday went Sakae with my classmate hozy only because the rest having budget, haha eating those weird seafood and stuff and not forgetting the only veggie i eat.

Picture gonna says all again, i too lazy to type.

TUESDAY!

The only veggie i eat in sakae.

Food we take.

Wednesday went fish & co with my haizi and my sister(jaslin ang) for dinner, turn out to be birthday celebration for Bern tan and me. Having hell lots of fun with them, especially grace and jaslin. Arcade after that, mario with jaslin was great, attacking each another, muhahahaha.

Grace playing house of the dead 4, the way of holding the gun damn funny.

Prue, playing house of the dead 4 together with grace.

NOT FORGETTING, I LOVE THE PRESENT, thank you all(my haizi) for spending so much time on to it. To Prueny, i'll save you from the gorillla and yes i know your mum is so sexy woohoo!, To Carissa, i'll learn to speak good chinese from you and will stare at your picture all day long, my retarded brain finally tell me what's "*sound effects and hand action." To Grace, you're the great and sexy "not" hahahaha i'm kidding la, yes a pretty face of yours' i see. Wanna thank everyone for writing on the book. Wanna thank my haizi for being my darlings all this while, without you all my life will be just emo-ing.

That's about all for this week and also hengs this week not much homework, woohoo!!!!!

Will try to update soon.

S_A_G_E_`

2007-08-30T09:28:00.000+08:00

Yay!!! Lesson start at 12pm today and that's why i'm at home now. Late for class yesterday, rush a cab down straight, lesson suppose to start at 12.30pm and i reach at 1pm. Luckily lecturer haven't mark attendance cos she had to conduct lecture with 3 to 4 class in a time. HENGZ!

Alright it's the third week of school.

Second week was like totally madness, got to chiong so manay homework in a shot nearly dead but unfortunately i didn't lolx. Starting to like my class even more and guess what, I'm not the oldest in my class muhahahaha. Okay shut up shiyi!

Okay let you show you some picture and artwork i've done in school.

Class photo, 3rd day of Orientation with our class project.

Picture taken by rania on the cab, on National Day.

2D Drawing of myself, on the left is curve line on the right is dots. On the top is the actual picture.

My School Golf Course lolx, the grass is fake.

That's all for today! I'm so sick now stupid flu. Anyway tomorrow is friday, yesh catching up with carissa and enjoy. Woohoo Update soon again.

2007-08-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Thank you my dear friends for staying up so late just to wish me happy birthday, wanna thank the band for singing birthday song to me. As i sms my friend at 4am in the morning that i don't have and feelings, yup totally no birthday mood at all. Except the birthday song the band and my Lasalle friend sang to me.

Alright it's second day of school, people asked me how's school and i only have i a word to say BORING i guess. Orientation for yesterday and today still got 2 more days to go. Met quite alot of friends, still searching for my eye candy muhahahahha. Hope tomorrow won't be a boring day cos we going out to play games if i'm not wrong i guess. Today is a totally madness day first i lost my ez-link card, second i got to spent so much money on school stuff. WTH!!!

ALright ending here will post more update and picture tomolo.

Bye

2007-08-06T12:48:00.000+08:00

THE POPULAR SALES @ Singapore Expo uptill 80%

The Crowd in Singapore Expo hall 4B

Dinie & me having fun calling "KAREN"

This past 4 days having been a tiring, stressful, leg torturing and killing day for the 5 of us[Jaslin, joyce, Ryan, Dinie and me].Can tell you seriously it's damn tiring, the whole day was like totally no life and our life are filled with BOOKS and MORE BOOKS. Myself was like, books books and more books, more and more customers with all sort of kuku faces[kind, friendly and sia lan]. More books, plastics bags, visa, master, nets, void sales, refunds, S$5 coupons, POP GV Coupons, Cash, toilet, water, lunch, dinner, lucky draw coupons and more books. Hi sir/mdm can you sign here for me, hi sir/mdm this is your lucky draw coupon you can fill it up and drop it at the box near the exit, hi sir/mdm after the S$5 discount the sub total will be S$10......., the most irritating of being cashier is sir/mdm the price you see on the screen are yet to be discount, the computer will deduct for you. And all thanks to the freaking computer some prices didn't deduct got to do stupid refund. Oh well... But after all a new experience, new friends and plans and many many things. Not forgetting dinie and i got to know this guy name Mr. Rick Hunter, pretty cool guy who tell karen that he's very happy to have the 2 of us to serve him while all our computers are down. Actually what we do is to help him fill up his lucky draw coupons. While working for popular this few days you actually know which race of people are stingy and which is kind.

Oh Karen haven't add us in msn and i think dorothy got a high post in popular oh well i think she gonna call me to go and work for her in coming december sale at expo and i don't want to work as cashier again. Fianlly i'm free today and the rest of the day, OH YESH school is starting next week.

2007-08-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

Alright Lasalle post pone the orientation to 13 aug which is like 12 more days to go counting from today. Hmm hmm hmm rotting another week at home. Oh well, going off to work at expo starting from tomorrow till sun together with jaslin and her friends.
Okay my PSP White is 1 week old le, finally got one.
White iPod shuffle, White Sony Ericsson W850i and lastly White Song PSP. Woo hoo..

Miss my hai zi, shall ask them out one day.
Gotta go.

2007-07-24T12:18:00.000+08:00

OMG!! i still haven't receive my orientation letter, it's like so excited.

Anyway friday when for carven's and gracia's birthday celebration @ heeren's billy bomber. Should rate it not to bad, ha! Alright picture will tell you all.

Me, Carissa and Carven outside Heeren!

When dentist yesterday, hmm not so scary after all. Muhaha. They drill a damn big hole on my crack tooth and then putting lots of stupid medicine on it. Till now i still can taste it, taste pretty awful, Oh well.

Counting down the days to school, 20 more days. Yesh yesh yesh..

2007-07-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. problem slowly casting away, thanks to ah bing for the long conversation in msn @ taiwan. Felt better, but have things not settle. Haiz.

2007-07-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

Today's band still alright, played some weird song and all.

Haiz.. still feeling emo and stuff, useless me. Less then a month to school, yay! Finally!

emoelmouselesshopelessfriendlesswhatcanido?

2007-07-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

Busy day today!

When to second auntie's hair saloon which just open. Stuck there for like a couple of long hours which is like seriously damn long. Around 6pm leave saloon to City hall for my baby niece full month celebration. Had buffet, food was nice and wine was even better. Muhahaha!

Met up with woan rong, mih huey and mark for dinner yesterday. Talk alot about band and most of all the most hot topic we talk about was relationship. hahahah it's like wth! Just talk non stop. Well it's been long since we all had such a long talk, asking for advice ans stuff like that. Woohoo miss secondary school days.

Alright gtg, going to emo on my bed already. Nights everyone.