Hai... Next month school will be starting le. I'm really hope that i can study in on of those poly. I NEED TO PROOF MY PARENT WRONG. I always wanted to think positive and the bright side of my life they always pour me negative. Luckily i have my friends around me to shower words of encouragement.

All this while i guess my parent have really given hope on me already, starting to look down on me and perhaps already condamn me. In their heart i named as usless kid, hopeless telling me that i'm wasting time studying to get a diploma. So what if i get a diploma, they just don't know how much they have hurt me. Why? Just trying to talk to them or maybe discuss with them saying what if i can't get into a Poly can i get into a private school or something they just don't sound happy and say that do whatever you want with those looking down on me looks. Sigh. How to survive in this family might as well go and die right.


Thanks carissa for the email and this message:

Be bold, be strong
for the lord our god with us,
I am not afraid I am not dismay cause i'm walking in faith and
Victory for the lord our god is with us.

Devil beside me get lost,
Santan who you think you are.

Hey shiyi wake up! stop your stupid negative attitude nonsense you're killing yourself!!!