You know...

Sometimes I just wish that I could be the one, but yet sometimes i don't even dare to wish for it.

Sometimes it's better not to say it out and rather keep to yourself or maybe sometimes you've just got the urge to say it out to the person you want to and don't care what's gonna happen next.

Life is confusing, feeling is even more confusing.

Sometimes you'll just wonder why can't you get whoever you want to be with you. And yet after gotten reject you can't even move on anymore.

No matter how many people walk thru and passes your life, you just can't accept it but only like the one your heart had chosen.

Life is unfair, life let you see all your friends getting a happy life with the other half but yet you can't get it for yourself. Why is it like this? I don't understand it myself sometimes.

Started working in RWS USS as causal recently or I should say it's almost a month ago. The job was pretty okay I should say, but to minus off some ugly hearted people this job would have been perfect. But oh well, without all these kind of people in the job you'll never get to learn. Got a little shock with their working style there though, trying to adapt as much as i could by learning from the correct people.

Received a text message about a week ago, a job had been offered to me as an ASM. Well, at first I rejected the job because firstly I wasn't ready or good enough to be an ASM and I had been their sound op ever since i stepped out to work in this industry. Secondly, my fall out friend is the SM in the production and I haven't been talking to her for the past 2 month plus. So these two things i've mentioned above makes me even more not ready for the job as much as I wanted to help. A few days later, i received another text message again from the PM asking me for some people's number and ask if i could help because of some reason. The asm job had been offer to me for the second time and I don't have the heart to reject it but to accept it. So I applied my leave at RWS USS and here I go, UPHILL.

Sunday night i couldn't get to sleep, not because i'm excited to go uphill and work but worried about how it would turn out between me and my fall out friend?

Monday, slowly climb up the tiring hill and got very exhausted after i reach the top. My first stop aunty florence wardrobe room to have a chat with her and receive a text message from SM a number that i haven't seen for the past 2 month plus to say i can report 15 min later, second stop to the office to look for Two Head pork to let her know that i'm here to report for work.

Honestly speaking i'm not prepare to see my SM yet, when SM came back from getting props I was so scared to walk into the office to even say hi. Seriously don't know what is wrong with me really. But i've got no choice, I took a deep breathe, walk into the office to say hi, i know i'm rude la cause i haven't got any eye contact when i greet. Came to my surprise, things went well with the first hi and everything. I just couldn't ask for more.

Well I'll update too again...

Sometimes I just don't understand why people are so dramatic around me.

People being two headed, people being such big fat liar.

Definition of two headed in my own dictionary.

Example 1:

Being kind to X and then go over to tell Y how bad X is, then going back to X again and tell how bad Y is!

Definition of liar in my own dictionary.

Example a:

Whenever things happen during a production, after solving a problem you go out and tell people un-true stuff and make people really believe that it's other team members fault.

Pardon my language but FUCK YOU two headed and liars!

It's exactly 1 year today!

A day that I've put down my heart to make a very big decision for myself...

Recently in Facebook people like to post some interesting short message toeither cheer you up or make you laugh and say yeah that's true!

A couple of pictures here:

All about horoscope... I'm in the last category

The W T F calendar

For some people who don't know how to respect others.

To FUGLY FROG, I didn't have a good impression of you but after working you seriously suck big fucking time. Don't have to give that proud and sarcastic look when you just an ugly frog cling to the human. B.I.T.C.H, you were jealous when human and I were still friends back then! So this message above applies alot. I don't wanna fight with you just an ugly frog because I listen to whatever human has told me and I don't wanna waste my time with just an ugly frog that only knows how to croak for nothing and bring outside friendship stuff into work. Don't have to pretend like as if you are working professionally, people around you have eyes to see. And lastly you don't know me well to comment on me B.I.T.C.H.

You are being juvenile not me!

Hahaha

"Hopeful" is the word to describe!

Well...

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Well... A lesson can mean alot of things like to change into a better person for the people whom have come into your life. OR some might say a lesson to move on, it's just a matter of time.

A blog to share my mood...

Reality bites a lot in my life recently...

!!!FUCK OFF YOU FUGLY FROG!!!

Bumped into theatre!

The feeling of working in an acting performance theatre is like a totally new experience for me.

Hate to work with two headed people to the core!