Call up Lasalle-sia College of the fine arts yesterday and the admin just got the result, freaking happy thought i can enter le. Freaking Sad, Disappoint and piss their passing mark was like 5.5 and damn it i've got 5. Why they just can't let me enter with that freaking 0.5, feel like crying when i hang up the phone but end up i didn't, need to put on a strong appearance so people who saw me yesterday i've got a fake smile. Cry in my heart, drop a few tears till i sleep, damn disappointed with myself keep asking myself why can't i do well. WHY I JUST CAN'T pass that freaking test. I was damn confident with the paper that i can pass, ended up I fail. I FAIL with that FUCKING 0.5 mark which is damn important to me.

This morning woke up at 8 plus, daily routine, breakfast and left home. When to Housing board to get something for my dad. Walk from Central to Shss, while i was walking kept thinking of school. Why i didn't make it? Feel like standing in the middle of the road and just end there, but i didn't it's damn stupid to do that just for that school What about my future. Damn IT!

Reach band around 10.55am, walk to my section and play. Just wasn't myself today, seat there quietly. Talk abit of crap but just couldn't cheer up at all, When for lunch, try to laugh with the jokes shi li and louis have say and done. When back school for main band, did some warm up then play Orientales. Stuck in the beginning with some problem in other section, sat there quietly like torturing myself, tears like dropping down so decided to walk out of band room wash my face. Came out from the toilet and calm down, randy got of the toilet we both talk for awhile. He's asking why not go abroad and study, I wish too but what about my friends, alumni band and even money matters.

Went back to the band room and continue with Orientales. Seat there again and think should i go japan anot. I know Japan can de stress me, but i don't know lah, just complicated thinking flying around me. Whatever i just angry with myself for not passing my english test. Damn bloody disappointed with myself, how could i fail it, Why i fail. just just could accept that i need to walk out of the schooling life and enter Working enviourment.

Damn it, i'm damn stupid.

Hmm..wanna say happy birthday to gina my cousin.
Wish you had a wonderful birthday party today/yesterday i should say. =) Drank a glass of red wine and my uncle pour out another class. haha Oh well anyway had alot of fun.

Damn piss of when my dad got to fetch those 3 jerks. That 3 Jerks come from 2 asshole who we use to call then uncle and aunty. They only cheat people money and yes...OLD PEOPLE MONEY.. Just jolly well fuck off, borrow money from loan shark, owe credit card bill no money le come borrow money from their owe siblings and his very owe mother. WTF.. Just Hated damn so much.. All my cousin hates them, they are just some ass hole.

Watching this show Carrie don't what, damn bloody lah. Whatever, crap that women is so evil.
Getting late got to go le.. bye.

haiz... getting bored with driving and so damn SIAN...

Main band starts on wednesday, nothing much just abit of warm up stuff to play and the impression 8 songs. Got to pay another S$16 for the japan don't know which school concert and one thing for sure is i don't want to sleep with rachel oh. And Yesh i'm not hahaha, see how ba.

Waiting for lasalle-sia college of the arts to call me up. Hope they let me in, but seriously their paper i should say is damn crap. Lasalle-sia call me ba, call me today, call me now. haha desprate for school. And Orientation is like on June and school is starting on 24 july. So better call me now. haha.

Something crazy happening in my grandma house, it's really damn crazy. hahaha, if i tell you now you gonna laugh out loud. Have you heard of going for an operation and you need to get our very own equipment etc knife, needle... hahaha. Only those f**ker say that without brain first time in my life i heard that.

got to go .. will update soon

Yesterday had driving lesson drove from Temaske poly to Seng Kang.. It was fun, oh well started off to drive smoothly everthing when fine. Of course it's fine cause mrs oh didn't call me up. hahaha. Crap...when on my way back to Tampines shift wrong gear then that stupid car die off. Crappy instructor was like, thanking for making the car engine die off. Immediately i say.. Shhhhhhhhhhhhh.... hahaha... Then he continue saying today you drove well but now car die off it's a good start to tell you how fast your reaction will be. CRAP... to my instructor ALEX thank you for making my day happy[Crap with you]..

Okay.. i today kay kiang go cut my hair. Wanted to trim abit then shorten the length abit. But ended up the same old spike hair style is back. What the hell, too late wanna expect me to stick back my hair.Shit i think it's very ugly no... Ahhh... English Exam today. Freaking Qian Da.. As if we don't know about the basic stuff in singapore. Paper one, First question if i remember They ask:

1. When you are going out where should you leave you key. [It's a sign somemore]

1. Hotel

2. Carpark

3. Restaurant

What the hell, It's like damn it!! No words to describle it... Papers two Essays, oh my it's all argumentive writing question.

1. Why is music important to you? Discuss.

2. and 3. i forgot

4. Alcohol is addictive and dangerous? Therefore it should be banned?Discuss.

Crap.. at first i choose the first one. Write less then 50 words i stopped, something stuck in my mind that i couldn't continue writing. So decided to write on the 4th topic. Started off well, ended with only 210 words. Oh my god, i scare in that 210 words i write out of point.. so with the 40 words left i fast write out what i wanna say. Crap, 2 paper only given 1hr 10 min. Where got enough and that bloody fat invigilator damn hao lian.. Feel like asking her to f**k off. Oh well ended up still control, no choice got to enter lasalle-sia.

Alright, i ending here le. I think tomorrow is another rotting day.

Just finish driving lesson, damn Mrs oh call me when i was in the middle of Changi Airport. Kaoz... Asking me whether rachel kwan pay me up the money.. WTH.. she like some loan shark, people also never say don't want to return. Anyway she already return me le mah.. opps sorry to say you very ah soh. Crap.. don't wanna talk about money know.. Yay! Today's driving damn shiok, drive from tampines to pasir ris then to changi. Ahhh later going to study again, Boring day...

Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring, Boring,

Boring,.........

Study study study...

Alright something to say to my hai zi. This few days i know examination damn stress up, but don't ever think that you all don't know good in what. You all have your own talent alright.
I also worst then you all right only got N level certificate, enter ITE is like risking your life everyday there will be fights and freaks who mouth is damn bloody itchy, wearing ITE uniform people would just simply look down on you. Entering into poly also got problem, tortoise school will always be wu gui wang ba dan, reply you damn late and will always make you lost hope. Now entering to Lasalle-sia still happy that they ain't like other tortoise school, but still having trouble course i've got no O level certificate. Well, infact it's damn jia liat to go back into book whereby i'm suppose to be doing those practical design stuff. Just don't think about you not good at any thing. My hai zi always good in their instruments and other stuff, proud to have them as my friends/hai zi.=)

Hai.. today is the 5th day of studying.. the more i study the more i think english nothing to study.. CRAP...
7 more days to exam.. 40% got confident, 50% slacking the other 10%. 5% stoning 5% don't know what to do. Now currently still in the mood in studying, but study around 1 hour i'll be walking here and there already. Doing lots of reading, compo and compre.. I guess it's enough. Yay! tomorrow driving lesson again, real life daytona.

Vroom Vroom...

Hmm... so many days i didn't update..
Let's start from monday, Labour day. I went for the first driving lesson, erm okay lah wait i must tell you all, i take private instructor so no cone and pole for me to knock down. Car i drove was Nissan Manuel car, Started off driving in some woo loo places whereby there's only Industrial. Car didn't die at all, just driving happily round and round at a damn bloody slow speed no fun.. CRAP. Out to Old Tampines Road i can't even drive faster what the hell only driving on 20km/hr bus and cars just overtake me and i was like F*** if i could drive faster my leg then tired got to control. Nah.. let's not talk about it.
Tuesday, hmm nothing much just rotting at home same goes on wednesday.
Hoho Thursday meet up with one of my volleyball friend in ITE. Because need to attent a interview by Lasalle-sia College of the arts, well everything when on fine and the interviewer/lecture is friendly. Talk alot about my portfoilio then he seem to be quite happy he offer me a place BUT.. i've got no O level cert so i need to take a O level standard english.. CRAP. Whatever i still got to pass that test in order to enter Lasalle-sia.
Friday... haiz.. studying day, happy because i can finally study, sad because i didn't touch books for like more then 2 years going 3 now going for exam kind of stress.
Saturday a fun day, had alumni so called gathering. Cater food at A1, not many people turn up but still quite happy at least still got 15+ people turn up. After food and some talking, went for movie with Jaslin, Rachel and Shawn Ling. Mission Impossible 3 shiok nice show damn exciting.
Sunday wanted to go st.hilda's church but i overslept so another slacking day.
Hahaha.. this kind of life damn boring.. needed a school desprately lor..

Last thursday was my happiest day i've passed my BTT at last.. yay! Don't know fail how many times lor.. now finally pass! but wait, i've got Final theory and practical test to take. Well today taking my very first driving lesson, feeling damn excited now walking up and down waiting for 3pm to arrive. Haha will update about driving tonite.
Time really flies, so fast a new month arrive. People in scool are having mid-year exam le. Sian everywhere you go see people study here and there. I also want to study but currently schooless simply slacking at home. Hopefully i can enter Lasalle-sia College of the arts.

Woah kaoz.. having pain since yesterday morning till now. Somemore at the right part on my stomach, like kana some man chang yan.WTH...

But anyway driving lesson make me more and more excited. hahahahahhahaa...

kk i got to go le.. update again tonite.

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vrom vrom away.