Erm damn piss with blogger. Woah kao i type okay so long then the thing crop up and deleted everything.

Woke up early in the morning, receive a sms from bernie saying the band having audition. So i juped out of bed wash up and hurried down to shss. Actually nothing much, when i reach shss i saw people playing with phone, sleeping, walking. Walk up to my section glad that some people still practice. Some just sleep like nobody business, and i got to ask them to wake up. Another thing is those can play well de practising ,cannot play one sleeping. WTH.

Then chop the story, Alumni band we decided to push back the paragon thingy. Prepare for alumni concert first. We played a few songs, tired le sit on the sofa. haha let the picture tell you more.

Taken in the band room.. ahaha[happy 3 friends]


Us again. Er picture abit blur cos i shake.

After taking photo and stuff we played the I can't fly song. Cute but Vulgar. End alumni around 6 plus. Go shopping with feng, ate long john saw this 2 girl from shss. Haha both of us just keep laughing at the old hag.. Okay don't so bad, as i was saying shopping actually not lah cos nothing for us to shop le.

Anyway taking exam on 6 march praying hard then i will pass and get a car.

Waiting anxiously for school posting result.

!!!Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Day 1 was rather bored. Didn't get a chance to meet my cousins and stuff that's why it's bored, the whole day just keep on yawning.

Day 2 Hmm.. busy day went all the way to Boon Lay. Erm damn far lah but okay at least this year didn't go so much places. In the afternoon went over to auntie house to learn mahjong haha so fun, 4 players 4 teachers.Lolx.
Then in the evening my dad's side all came over to my house muhahahaha play black jack damn shiok i won 2 bucks.

Day 3 yesterday meet up with Carissa, Pei Yun, Shi En and Song Ren. Went over to Mrs Oh house, played Dai Dee, Bridge and Black Jack. Hahaha overall i won. Then next stop to Marine square then went arcade to play daytona... haha we played a total of 4 to 5 times. Then shop around for awhile then left M.S.
Tired but enjoyable day.

Last night had a sms conversation with my "friend". Ended the conversation by sending him a long sms. Haiz... So basically is i just want an answer and reason. Arh.. whatever talking about it is quite saddening.

Woke up early this morning lying on bed suddenly have this weird thinking came to me. Like as if i gonna die or something. Thinking of What have i been doing for the past 19 plus going 20 years in my life. 14 years in studies, a year for nothing. 4 years enjoying childhood?. This year hopefully into a school.

And also life with friends, Friendship. Hmm.. have i been a good friend to other people, what they think about me and stuff.

Haiz.. my life is just fill with thinking.

Finally O level result has reliease, happy for my kids. Congrats!!!

You all did well, Oh oh one more thing stupid SHSS!! huh O's students also student mah dye hair got wrong meh? Before O level start they have been studying like crazy lots of WHITE hair and also don't you know that we were once a hildan and if we go in the school we also won't create problem put us outside like prisoners, TOTALLY CRAP. But well when we were outside lots of stupid things came around, thinking of how to get into SHSS. People came up with ideas of climbing in thru primary school, go into the church, go home where school uniform then go in. Hahahahaha, but for me go inside for band meeting, hahahaha hey btw the meeting is real okay it's just that they didn't start up with anything when i'm in.

Okay, then cut the story went TP to apply/register for school. Okay this year was better don't have to Q so long. Then things happen like, student come forward to me telling me this "erm i want to know many about this course" I was like??? erm you need to ask the staff there. Another thing was this TP staff come to me thought that i'm her collegue. Hahahahahhaa. damn funny. Hai HOPE I GET INTO A POLYTECHNIC THIS YEAR.

Okay i stupidly go apply this JPSAE which is not go there for interview with my artwork. Course this staff there damn helpful lah. Then is apply thru audition in band. Shruck!!! Liao already. Arh...phobia in audition, once i enter into the room my mind will go totally BLANK. Still remember when i first fo philyouth audition, one word to say SCARY and i think i really throw Mr. Sim face lor playing CRAP. But experience ba to an wei myself.

So i'm still thinking of going the audition or not to go. SHOULD I?

One year have final past, have been waiting from last march till now and today it's the day. Polytechnic is now open for students to apply, O level releasing today. All the best my kids, you all will surely do well cause i believe you all.

Pass 1 month i've been emo-ing about school just very worried that i wouldn't be able to enter into polytechnic. Seriously praying real hard that i'll get into a school, without caring what course they offer me. JUST LET ME GET INTO A SCHOOL!!! Also not forgetting praying everyday for my kids' good result. [sound like really my kids..haha]=)

Trying to be positive this few days and it work for awhile, at least i won't think that i won't get into a school and stuff. Well at least now i got abit of confident, but still kind of scare. Thanks to my kids[yun and feng] keep telling me that i can do it and not forgetting my Vice-President Jaslin keep telling me i can de. Ha...

Okay i was doing portfolio yesterday so i shall show you all.

Picture shown above is me at pasir ris park.

Taken by carissa, Edited by me.

Using to named it "Freedom" but after editing it i name it "Wasn't given a chance to shine".

I wasn't given a chance to enrol into a polytechnic the previous year, negative thoughts rushing into me and make me lost many hope, after a few encouragement i finally put myself together again and willing to give another try this brand new year.

Next picture Mr. Sim and Jeremy during band camp playing the game "I'm the Best".

Taken by me, Edited by me.

Named it "Encouragement", when your surrounding suddenly turn miserable and no one is there for you. Your best friend is your teacher, He is always there to encourage you.

Last picture i'm showing, Yun and Bern swinging at pasir ris park.

Taken by me, Edited by me
Named it "Swing all troubles away", Swing away all the troubles that has been irritating you for the past few hours, days, months or years. Enjoy the happy moment with your friends.

Okay stopping here, hope to show you more pictures in the next blog. 3 hours more to go. Will me good luck.

Hmm... Celebrated Carissa's Birthday on tuesday.

Went to Pasir Ris park for a picnic with feng, yun and bern tan, bought food like tibits which is so darn fatterning. hahaha.. And i had a kite name dog cos it's can't fly and i just drag it along as i walk. muhahaha, act abit retard to the kite lah. Oh during the food part, while eating those crow like hungry ghost wanna attack us[bern tan was like screaming]. Okay we walk from the end of the park to the starting of the park cos we wanna play the spider web, hover disc and the swing. Then went to the sea side for a walk with feng. After a while went back to tampines mall for pasta mania and then arcade. Hahahhaa Daytona, air hockey and the stupid hitting game. Hey carissa hope you like the present..=)Lazy to blog so let the picture tell you all. Enjoy!

Me, feng and yun [Bern tan not there cos scare of heights]

Having fun with the swings

Us having fun.