OMG!!!

I receive letter from Lasalle College of the Arts today. I got into the school, YESH i'm damn happy of course. SERIOUSLY i am, damn hard to explain in words but yar just damn happy. I going to study hard and go Uni if i can.

Alright, this morning woke up at 11am damn tired and sick. Medicine really make me fly. When band today helped the percussion out for founder's day rehersal. It's was kind of bad i should say, people cannot play with tempo and don't know how to roll the beat. I've got to play bass drum for them till my hand cramp. Now even taking a piece of tissue my hand also shake. Percussion need more training yar. Okay gotta rest early today feeling damn drowsy now. Will update you all soon.

Happy.Happy. Happy

Oh Shit!!! The flu is killing me, nose tap leaking non stop. Hope tomorrow i'm gonna be alright. Alright saturday went lasalle the interview turn out to be fine, got to know new friend so ya next is to hope that i can get in.

Anyway here are some picture taken on Synergy Night:

Practice before Synergy Night [I still owe them ice cream]

Synergy Night at VCH's VIP toilet

Syngergy Night at VCH's VIP toilet 2

Oh went shao mu yesterday, it was a smoky, tired and dusty day. Rush back for church but then went me and feng arrive it was like kind of late i guess, then was too shy to go up so decided not to go. When shopping with feng bought a bag and a watch shown below.

Pictures taken yesterday:

Puma black & orange watch. [Feng and Me]

Shop the whole day for the watches so stop at starbuck for a drink.

Flu is killing me,

Hope i can get into lasalle.

I'm climbing out of the hole.

Going for Lasalle interview soon.

Trying very hard to climb out from that dark and scary hole,

but once again i fell in deeply no matter how hard i try,

losing all my confident, my hope.

With Friends encouragment i've decided to give it a try again.

Hope this time i really can make it. I really hope i can.

Confuse.Depression.Sad.Emo.Moody

or

Confident.Happy.

I've no idea?!?!?!?!?!?!

St. Hilda's Synergy Night was yesterday, band did a great job. Congrats! Will post pictures soon.

Sorry guys i wasn't in a good mood in the evening yesterday, i just couldn't smile. Really sorry.

When starbucks for a drink at En Tong Street with the usual gang[feng, yun, jaslin song ren and wan yi]. Wasn't nice i guess, cos chewing all the ice. Then after that i got to go home so feng, yun and me took cab back. First time in my life saw the police stop in the middle of bedok reseviour road. Of all place but there, but well lots of people got caught drink and drive.

Tomorrow going for Lasalle-SIA College of the Arts for interview. Hope i can get in, If not will see what i can do.

Thanks you guys i know i'll never be alone, you guys will be with me.

Confuse.Depression.Sad.Emo.Moody

Oh yesh!
I think i gonna have depression soon, Sp, Tp and Rp rejected my application. Now only left with Np and Nyp as for me i think i really given up hope already. Now what i can do is only shred a few tears even if i wanna cry out loud also can't just EMO, Heart sink all the way to the ground can even felt it crying inside. But to keep me away from negative side i just force myself to be happy good thing that i've band to keep me entertain. Then my only hope is Lasalle for now, but well i just can't sit there and wait stupidly.
Haiya, why this kind of thing happen on me! WHY WHY!
So i rather keep my problem to myself again and return back to my original character. Cause i guess my friend just tired of listening.

Now even if you ask me to study MDIS or Higher Nitec do you think i got mood. MDIS is everyday exam, Higher Nitec isn't my direct course. Yes it's better then no school but it's just different, i also don't know how to explain to you, cause somehow i couldn't accept the fact that i landed up like this, Useless me that's all i could say.. What can i do now Goverment worker? Working Life?

Confuse.Depression.Sad.Emo.Moody

Pictures on band camp:

Night life in band.. Mahjong keep us entertain

Band camp day 2, Sec 1 having Drills..



Band Camp day 2, outside AVA but it's not a band activity[Oh what a sexy ghost]



Band Camp day 3: Alumni



Band Camp day 3: Committee meeting




Band Camp Day 3: Mr Sim on the sofa keep on smsing thru out the 3 days

Band Camp Day 3: New band game"FreeFall"

Oh well the picture already do the talking for me nothing much for me to blog much. Then after band camp i send carissa, jaslin and yun home, Carissa reach home in a piece though she's sick. Yun said the ride was scary but she slept in the car. So ya after band camp the next day my whole body aching.

Woohoo... feeling great today. Haha.. License to drive.

Well this morning drive my "CAR" but actually it's a van to practice. Erm everything is fine except parking cos cannot see arh. Then with the help of my mum i finally park in.

In the afternoon drive to fetch Pei yun then to shss, hahaha i had fun lah but got one question to ask Yun you scare anot???

Oh then went for band practice after that send bern tan, jing ying, yun and lin home. Reach house downstair haha damn scary lah i park the car myself. Er... damn damn damn scary but well i did it. Woohoo!

Er yun, yeah at least the daytona-ing paid off. Then carissa wanna get free ride soon? hahaha.

Er.. i got nothing much to blog. Well next time i drive lorry, then you all sit behind fly kite alright.

I'm kidding.

OH YESH!!!!!

I'VE PASS my driving test. Yes yes... Woah i actually can't believe that i pass thru just this one time. Woohoo...

Oh yesh! Today is the day, going to have test later. And also my very first time waking up so early, hahaha when is the last time i wake up so early??? Alright all the best for myself.
Feeling alright now still don't feel gan chiong leh.

Just came back from driving lesson. Hope to pass tomorrow, haha if pass le shiok no need to spend money on driving lesson again. Then can say bye to adult fare if i've a car lah, inside me feeling high now but face expression cool. Well praying hard to get a pass tomorrow.

Hai... Next month school will be starting le. I'm really hope that i can study in on of those poly. I NEED TO PROOF MY PARENT WRONG. I always wanted to think positive and the bright side of my life they always pour me negative. Luckily i have my friends around me to shower words of encouragement.

All this while i guess my parent have really given hope on me already, starting to look down on me and perhaps already condamn me. In their heart i named as usless kid, hopeless telling me that i'm wasting time studying to get a diploma. So what if i get a diploma, they just don't know how much they have hurt me. Why? Just trying to talk to them or maybe discuss with them saying what if i can't get into a Poly can i get into a private school or something they just don't sound happy and say that do whatever you want with those looking down on me looks. Sigh. How to survive in this family might as well go and die right.


Thanks carissa for the email and this message:

Be bold, be strong
for the lord our god with us,
I am not afraid I am not dismay cause i'm walking in faith and
Victory for the lord our god is with us.

Devil beside me get lost,
Santan who you think you are.

Hey shiyi wake up! stop your stupid negative attitude nonsense you're killing yourself!!!

Receive a letter from SP yesterday. Expected it wasn't sucessful so i guess i need to appeal again. When job interview cum shopping with Carissa yesterday, Oh and she got the job. So after her trainning and stuff we went shopping around bugis but that shop close. So went to cityhall and marine square the same shop close. Haha... so went topshop shopping and then had macdonald for dinner. Just as we finishing dinner i heard my phone ringing, i saw a bloody hell of 37 missed calls. WTF, as usual call ringing again mum's nagging saying she called carissa twice. My godness call my friend for what, what the hell okay. Carissa say my mum so scary next time don't ask me out le. SEE MUM THIS IS WHAT YOU'VE DONE! Satisfy now?!

So i was damn angry with my mum so took a cab back home. Reach home my face turn darn black. Nagging dash into my ear, getting damn negative in my mind. I HATE MY HOME!

There's always no peace, no consent, no caring, everything no. Them sms with Carissa, i guess she also give up on me le, comforting me is like vomitting all her blood out.

SORRY!

Tuesday Carissa, Yun and me went to cityhall for some interview which we decided not to work there lolx. Cos the enviourment too high class. So before interview we went New York for lunch. Okay let the picture do the talking.


New York


Our Lunch

After meal formal shoot.

After meal... Funny Face

Busy sending pic =)

Oh well enjoy ourself for lunch, shopping and maybe the interview. hahaha alright gonna have shopping cum job hunt today, will update again tonite i guess!